fallbythewayside

I've been getting frustrated at work lately. I've been working so hard to turn the store around and really make it awesome. I spent the last two months cleaning and sorting everything to make it look like an actual professional supply house instead of a scumhole you can buy HVACR product in. I've been ordering in product, making displays, setting up endcaps, etc. I told my boss I want to do a psuedo remodel by painting the walls, putting trim on the slatwall displays, and buffing the floor, and he's essentially put a stop to my efforts. I also want to work out a preferred customer discount system to get companies and technicians to give all of their business to us, hopefully putting the competition out of business, but he won't let me do that either. I'm not really sure why, but I think it's just that he wants control over the store because he's the manager. Rather than applaud and encourage my initiative and interest in improving the store, he's making me wait until he has the time to see over the projects. Which is fine, except he's just going to say "Okay, go buy the paint" and then watch me do it for the next three days. Why can't he just do that now? I dunno, I don't mean to bitch, it's just that after all the work I've already done, I feel like it was all for nothing. I really hope I'm wrong and can still manage to turn that place around. If I do, it'll definitely be a good stepping stone to getting a store manager position within the next couple of years.

To go hand-in-hand with my efforts at work, I'm also trying to improve my way of living. Get to bed earlier, get up earlier, start going to the gym again, eat better, get my finances completely under control, etc. It's a change that's been long overdue, but I finally feel a strong will to just get it done. Also, once I start living healthier, I want to quit smoking at some point during the winter. I fully plan to continue smoking weed (though not as much), but the cigarettes are just killing me. They'll also do a lot to counteract my efforts at the gym. It's just a lot of self-improvement that really needs to happen, and needs to happen soon. I feel good about it, though.

I've just noticed a lackadaisical attitude towards life in general, and feel as though I have to try to be more active, productive, and healthy in the way I go about my life. Maybe it's turning 24, maybe it's having a real job that I actually see myself at for a long time, maybe it's living on my own. I don't know, but I do know that things have to change.