I just got back from Denver today.
I was there to visit family, well.... not my family, but the closest thing I have to family.
My whole life I've been a "friend of the family" to my good friends.
It's a shame I'm not apart of my own family.
My mother says I am, but I feel so far from it since I'm the only person that I know that has my last name and the only blood relative I know is my mother.
No matter how hard I try to fit in with other fanilies, as well as my own, I always feel distance. I think it's from being alone since I was 8 after the divorce and mother working nights, and being an only child, and moving often. Shit, I moved 14 times before I even joined the Navy.
I rea;ize thats the reason why I never felt"home" anywhere I've ever lived. I just call it "the place where I slept and do stuff" not a home.
I was there to visit family, well.... not my family, but the closest thing I have to family.
My whole life I've been a "friend of the family" to my good friends.
It's a shame I'm not apart of my own family.
My mother says I am, but I feel so far from it since I'm the only person that I know that has my last name and the only blood relative I know is my mother.
No matter how hard I try to fit in with other fanilies, as well as my own, I always feel distance. I think it's from being alone since I was 8 after the divorce and mother working nights, and being an only child, and moving often. Shit, I moved 14 times before I even joined the Navy.
I rea;ize thats the reason why I never felt"home" anywhere I've ever lived. I just call it "the place where I slept and do stuff" not a home.
i think i hate it.