These past few weeks have been a shitstorm of bullshit.
First I found out one of my friends is legit dying, like my bestest friend who I never get to see because we live thousands of miles apart and his new treatment means he has to change his traveling plans so I won't see him or my godson like I normally do this holiday season. He also confided something seriously messed up to me that he's only really told me and his husband, which is hard and kind of upped the whole shit. Like I'm pissed off. My best friend is dying, I don't see him enough as it is and now I will see him less and then never again because he will be dead. And the fake faces are coming out the woodwork to show face, which is a whole other fucked up shit.
Then I find out that the reason I've been feeling tired and rundown is that my periods are actually trying to kill me. I'm legit bleeding out on my periods. My hemoglobin levels were down to 5 they should have been like a 15. I had to get an emergency blood transfusion and I'm currently getting iron infusions. I've seen had my period and now the effects are falling off. I'm not as low as I was but I do feel exhausted, drained, and just plain tired. But hey I can still see my freckles so that's a good sign. But there's a possibility I might need a blood transfusion every time I have my period.
Last, of all, I wound up breaking my fucking ankle walking out the front door, yes by walking out the front door. And then my boyfriend got fired from his job. I don't know how much more we can take at this point. And meanwhile, I'm getting fucking shit from the fake friends for trying to commiserate with my best friend over both having to get weekly treatments. I've been helping out my pregnant friend because the father is basically a nut case and can't be counted on. Working my ass while feeling like shit between doctor appointments. Taking care of my grandfather that I live with and his dog and my kids. Not to mention trying to get the shit we need with basically no money and Christmas gifts now. I'm beyond stressed and feeling depressed and I really just don't need fake ass people acting like they are better than me by raising money for my best friend who doesn't want nor need the money and specifically told everyone not to do shit like this. I'm not even being a jerk about it he just bought the iPhone X for him and his husband, upgraded their hot tub, and are building a second deck on their huge house. And as the former main beneficiary of his will before he even had the money he has now I know for a fact he is well off, plus I still am a beneficiary and if something happens to his husband after he dies I gain custody of my godson who has his own trust fund.
Anyway this is the most honest I've been about what is going on with me. I've shared some of the pics above before but not all of them and some of them I filtered to make them less scary with the blood.
