So.
Josh didn't get me anything for my birthday.
He remembered my birthday.
And didn't get me a damn thing.
When I asked him, which I asked jokingly, he tried to blame me and say that he didn't know what to get me.
That's some bullshit because I've been dropping mad gift hints, and hell, get me anything with hello kitty on it and you know I'll flip out. I'm SUPER easy to buy for. Cute shit = happy Fae.
So then he ups and tries to go out and get me something right on the spot, but he was lingering, almost as if he was waiting for me to tell him "no". Which I did. It didn't matter at that point.
Giving someone a present on their birthday isn't specifically about what you get them, but it's to show them that you're happy they're in your life, and the thought and the meaning behind the gift is what matters the most. Hell, I'm happy with cards if someone writes a personal note with it. Those mean a lot to me actually.
Needless to say, I was pissed. I was also extreeeeeeeemely stoned, so I pretty much just ignored it for then, but as I sobered up, I started getting pissed off again. I woke up pissed off. I've been pissed off all day. I did so much cleaning and housework, and we didn't talk like at all.
This might just be the final breaking straw. With how much shit has been going on with us lately, he's becoming more of a nuisance and something that brings me misery than someone who lifts me up and makes me happy. Which he used to. But I'm starting to think that it was all lies.
I seriously can't count how many times he's said that he goes allllllll out for peoples birthdays. This makes me wonder why exactly could he go out for all these other people who supposedly mean so much less to him than I do, and for my birthday, he just sits on his ass and watches tv. He made me dinner, which he had INSISTED on doing (I really am not a fan of his cooking so I was begging him to just take me out somewhere, but he forced his way.), but he only did it AFTER I reminded him that he said he was going to do it. He hadn't gotten any food, he didn't even know what he was making, and he has been talking about this meal for like two weeks. And to be totally honest, he kinda fucked up my brand new glass dish by cooking steak in it, the fat is so burnt on there, I scrubbed for like half an hour. It's been soaking all day. Hopefully that'll get it off.
I'm just so utterly frustrated. I give this man chance after chance because I really liked how things were at the beginning. Now that I know him for his true self though, I think he's so self hating that he's fucking up on purpose. Pushing me away, he expects me to leave him after the fucked up shit he's done. Since I haven't left yet, it has to get worse. So that eventually, he does something that sends me over the edge and then I'll be gone. He can play the victim and his "homies" will all crowd around him and build up his ego, since he can't do it himself.
That's just how I see it though.
/rant
Josh didn't get me anything for my birthday.
He remembered my birthday.
And didn't get me a damn thing.
When I asked him, which I asked jokingly, he tried to blame me and say that he didn't know what to get me.
That's some bullshit because I've been dropping mad gift hints, and hell, get me anything with hello kitty on it and you know I'll flip out. I'm SUPER easy to buy for. Cute shit = happy Fae.
So then he ups and tries to go out and get me something right on the spot, but he was lingering, almost as if he was waiting for me to tell him "no". Which I did. It didn't matter at that point.
Giving someone a present on their birthday isn't specifically about what you get them, but it's to show them that you're happy they're in your life, and the thought and the meaning behind the gift is what matters the most. Hell, I'm happy with cards if someone writes a personal note with it. Those mean a lot to me actually.
Needless to say, I was pissed. I was also extreeeeeeeemely stoned, so I pretty much just ignored it for then, but as I sobered up, I started getting pissed off again. I woke up pissed off. I've been pissed off all day. I did so much cleaning and housework, and we didn't talk like at all.
This might just be the final breaking straw. With how much shit has been going on with us lately, he's becoming more of a nuisance and something that brings me misery than someone who lifts me up and makes me happy. Which he used to. But I'm starting to think that it was all lies.
I seriously can't count how many times he's said that he goes allllllll out for peoples birthdays. This makes me wonder why exactly could he go out for all these other people who supposedly mean so much less to him than I do, and for my birthday, he just sits on his ass and watches tv. He made me dinner, which he had INSISTED on doing (I really am not a fan of his cooking so I was begging him to just take me out somewhere, but he forced his way.), but he only did it AFTER I reminded him that he said he was going to do it. He hadn't gotten any food, he didn't even know what he was making, and he has been talking about this meal for like two weeks. And to be totally honest, he kinda fucked up my brand new glass dish by cooking steak in it, the fat is so burnt on there, I scrubbed for like half an hour. It's been soaking all day. Hopefully that'll get it off.
I'm just so utterly frustrated. I give this man chance after chance because I really liked how things were at the beginning. Now that I know him for his true self though, I think he's so self hating that he's fucking up on purpose. Pushing me away, he expects me to leave him after the fucked up shit he's done. Since I haven't left yet, it has to get worse. So that eventually, he does something that sends me over the edge and then I'll be gone. He can play the victim and his "homies" will all crowd around him and build up his ego, since he can't do it himself.
That's just how I see it though.
/rant
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I had to hear how he is "bad at giving gifts"...really? cuz a fucking card would have sufficed.
Good luck girl. Only you know when enough is enough. It's hard, I do understand. hugs.