This Christmas was like none other i have experienced in a long time, sadly it is not for the best reasons at all. My December was working none stop leading up to the 25th I only had 2 days off that where suppost to happen my other days off were internally due to weather. By the time Xmas eve came along I was so high strung, stressed out and worn out that mistakes where happening and i ended up not even to dive on the final day I was that stretched out.
At least when I was able to see my cousin's everything changed, it is amazing what a good joint can do and some random waking can do to clear the head . it's funny to release that right now I still don't consider myself were I want to be it is the exact opposite really I think I have been depressed and running ever since my break up years ago. I do enjoy being a commercial scuba diver but my position has never since I got started I am once again working to live but not living for work. If I could choose a perfect job I would want to tattoo professionally . my whole concept to start diving was so I could do 3 main things draw, nature, dive try to focus on those three things and hopefully transition into a more creative lifestyle.
enough ramblings for now,
Tomorrow is my birthday!! And I'm stuck out at work hopefully this week goes fast so my time off comes sooner.
