I spent the day in Greenwich park, chatting with old and making new friends with the good folk that are down there this weekend.
As I wandered about, I calculated that I hadn't been there in 23 years. As a child it was one of my (and my mums) favorite parks. Strong, clear, memories started to return near the boat lake. Memories 'unlocked' other memories. With every step along that path there was a curious and timeless sensation of knowing the place, happy, sunny, times. Now that i am twice as tall, the visual memories of a child did not overlay squarely with what I could now see (the perspectives were different). Unusual sensations of seeing simultaneously as a child and an adult, of being present and yet in a timeless space.
Indeed this has been a recent trend; returning to places that I have not been for years and unlocking memories. I am loving it and am savoring every moment of re-membering.
I also found I job that I feel really excited to apply for!
As I wandered about, I calculated that I hadn't been there in 23 years. As a child it was one of my (and my mums) favorite parks. Strong, clear, memories started to return near the boat lake. Memories 'unlocked' other memories. With every step along that path there was a curious and timeless sensation of knowing the place, happy, sunny, times. Now that i am twice as tall, the visual memories of a child did not overlay squarely with what I could now see (the perspectives were different). Unusual sensations of seeing simultaneously as a child and an adult, of being present and yet in a timeless space.
Indeed this has been a recent trend; returning to places that I have not been for years and unlocking memories. I am loving it and am savoring every moment of re-membering.
I also found I job that I feel really excited to apply for!
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Thinking in terms of sedimentation doesn't allow for a middle ground so well. I want to think in terms of plasticity. A sense of oneself, of agency and personal responsibility, while also being open to change and learning.
I suspect that anything we do limits how we operate - it seems to be the nature of choice - that in making one, we exclude something and limit ourselves. The art it seems to me is to make choices which allow us to continue to grow.
I chose to stay at home yesterday and I chose to certain extent to fall ill in the first place. I've been trying to find a way to take some time off for myself but it's very hard. I had 5 fucking calls on my mobile yesterday with apparent emergencies. I ignored them. They weren't emergencies at all. At the moment I'm the only f/t member of staff - a situation I should have remedied by September. I should be able to take a good chunk of time off in August, between the adverts/interviews and the start dates. Between now and then I can see myself taking the odd day here and there...
Wasn't sure how to take your comment in the fake life thread. It looks like she took it at face value. It is quite easy to say "wake up" but frequently not that helpful, so I liked what you wrote, and felt appropriately chastened. I guess I couldn't decide on whether you were being ironic and if so, to what extent.