I’ve been playing video games longer than I can remember. My earliest gaming memory is from when I’m about 6-7 years old and playing Mortal Kombat 2 at a friend’s place after school. Reptile was my favorite. Growing up though, gaming was limited and I was forced to play outside a lot, I know, terrible. It was fun, especially when I got older and got a dirt bike. Tangent aside, I always loved gaming, even back when I was limited to about an hour or two a day. I always loved RPGs, FPS, Adventure games, action games, Hell, I liked just about every game. I was never super picky. My first couple consoles were hand me downs. I had a Sega Genesis, and later PlayStation that I shared with my sisters. I played Sonic and Tetris, Sword of Vermilion, Columns, ToeJam & Earl, PaRappa the Rapper, Crash Bandicoot, Zombies Ate My Neighbors, Animaniacs, Superman 64, Gex and Gex: Enter the Gecko, Vagrant Story, Legend of Dragoon, among hundreds of others. I have played more games that I can ever recall, most never to completion. Some I wish would get remade so I could enjoy them gain, Gex is one of those Franchises. I don’t remember too much about it, but what I do remember lets it hold a high place in my nostalgic mind.
One of the issues I’ve been having recently though is that my passion for gaming has died down a lot. I want to play games and enjoy them like I used to, but I can’t. I played TES: Morrowind and Oblivion for about 200+ hours each, but I can’t even clock in 20 hours on Skyrim. Same with Gears of War, one of my all-time favorite franchises, I played all 5 games that have been released, but haven’t completed Gears 4. I spent about $500 on merch and consoles for GoW4 but I can’t enjoy myself like I used to. I don’t know if I’m changing, but I still clock 20+ hours a week gaming, so I don’t think it’s that.
Nowadays, I almost only play League of Legends. I got a 14 day ban on my account for intentionally feeding in one game because I was having a bad game and my team was being extremely toxic, so I started to intentionally feed. I thought it was way too long for a first-time offense, but I can’t do anything about it, so I started a new account so I could work on my mechanics and hopefully get better. I doubt I will get any better, but here’s to hoping. My Main Account is “Dread Rawb” if any of you reading this plays. I’m currently stuck in B5 because Riot doesn’t care about how well you do in placements. Literally, I went 7-3 in my placements to Bronze 5. 7 Fucking wins and 3 losses, and I got placed into the lowest division in the game. I can’t get any better because I’m stuck with the worst players.
But complaining aside, I do love games and gaming, I loved the beautiful worlds devs create, the time the put into amazing stories, and even LoL, not so much other MOBAs, but I beta tested quite a few.
WHAT AM I HOPING TO GET FROM THIS POST?
Nothing. I’m taking the time to write this, not for satisfaction, I already know that won’t come.
I’m writing this to express myself on a site that I, on impulse, purchased a year membership to.
I don’t expect people to read of care, but I’ll keep writing and maybe people will read them.
I’m going to post random blogs and maybe I’ll start writing something interesting.
Hopefully
But if you see this line right here, I sincerely thank you for taking the time to read this. It means more to me that someone read this than anyone will ever know. Even after writing that line.
So thank you and may you have a less terrible day that your previous day.