so i lost about 10 lbs while being sick....fortunately for me however...im not sick anymore and my appetite is in full effect....wahoo....so those 10 lbs are slowly but surely finding their way back to my thighs....yum food is one of my favorite things....
im not sure how i manage to stay so thin...i eat all the time...and i really am not exagerating about that...from the time i wake up to the time i go to bed....im constantly putting food in my trap....im guessing its my metabolism....its gotta be on hyperspeed or some shit....so one day when i turn like 26 or something its gonna die and all of s sudden ill gain like 80 lbs....which in all honesty wouldnt bother me....i figure if im gonna be fat im gonna be fat...all there is to it...and besides i have enough pictures to show my future kids that i was once thin....
annaliesa is home!!!!!!!! wahoo
her sarah and jeff swung by the toot n scoot las night to see me....i missed her so much....we're going to the museum today and then hopefully later on tonight up to the hihg school to see the fall play....i miss the drama club...as dorky as it sounds....i liked feeling that rush in front of an auditorium packed with people as i pretended to be something i wasnt....the good ol days....ha...
i was jason's relief last night at work....it was the first in about 2 weeks or so that ive seen him....i think he said about 2 words to me...if that....i dont know why im still bitter(?)....im not normally like this after a breakup or whatever....usually i just pick up and move on....but for some reason or another i just cant do that with him....blah....i told annaliesa on the phone last night that i was done looking for things and people...from now on im just going to let them find me....she said she was going to quote me on that....shes silly....
im eating cold pizza and drinking milk....yum yum yum....just what i need after a long 9 hour shift....ha....i gave my dogs a bath wheni got home from work too...they're all fluffy and fat....i love em sooooo much...hehe....
this entry is completely devoid of purpose or meaning but yet i just keep going and going....
2 nights ago i did something i never thought i would do again....i ate tuna....i felt so unbelievably guilty afterwards....mostly because its been a very very long time since ive eaten any sort of food that once had a heartbeat...but also because i really liked it....it tasted so good and i felt awful for it....i think i drank about 10 gallons of water to try and flush it all out of me....haha...
my birthday is coming up in about a week or so....i hate celebrating my birth...not because i dont think i should have been born but because it seems like people feel obligated or forced to buy me things or say happy birthday....i would rather on some completely unannounced day be totally surprised with a party or something...that way it showed people werent doing it because they felt like they had to but because they wanted to...
so this year when i blow out the candles on my cake im not going to make a wish....instead....im going to make my dad make a wish....why you may or may not ask...because i know as well everyone else who knows and loves my padre that he doesnt have many birthdays left....we highly doubt he sees his next one because he starts up chemo and radiation treatments again for the bagillionth time in march...hes so weak as is that i know this is only going to do him more harm than good....sooooo since this is the case i figure he should have all the birthday wishes possible....he deserves them more than i do anyway....man oh man....i love my padre...
ok well this is long...and boring...and absolutely pointless and i have more cold pizza to eat and thats hard to do when you are typing....so i hope you all have a lovely day filled with all kinds of fun things....take care...xoxoxoxxxxxxxxxxxo...
im not sure how i manage to stay so thin...i eat all the time...and i really am not exagerating about that...from the time i wake up to the time i go to bed....im constantly putting food in my trap....im guessing its my metabolism....its gotta be on hyperspeed or some shit....so one day when i turn like 26 or something its gonna die and all of s sudden ill gain like 80 lbs....which in all honesty wouldnt bother me....i figure if im gonna be fat im gonna be fat...all there is to it...and besides i have enough pictures to show my future kids that i was once thin....
annaliesa is home!!!!!!!! wahoo
her sarah and jeff swung by the toot n scoot las night to see me....i missed her so much....we're going to the museum today and then hopefully later on tonight up to the hihg school to see the fall play....i miss the drama club...as dorky as it sounds....i liked feeling that rush in front of an auditorium packed with people as i pretended to be something i wasnt....the good ol days....ha...
i was jason's relief last night at work....it was the first in about 2 weeks or so that ive seen him....i think he said about 2 words to me...if that....i dont know why im still bitter(?)....im not normally like this after a breakup or whatever....usually i just pick up and move on....but for some reason or another i just cant do that with him....blah....i told annaliesa on the phone last night that i was done looking for things and people...from now on im just going to let them find me....she said she was going to quote me on that....shes silly....
im eating cold pizza and drinking milk....yum yum yum....just what i need after a long 9 hour shift....ha....i gave my dogs a bath wheni got home from work too...they're all fluffy and fat....i love em sooooo much...hehe....
this entry is completely devoid of purpose or meaning but yet i just keep going and going....
2 nights ago i did something i never thought i would do again....i ate tuna....i felt so unbelievably guilty afterwards....mostly because its been a very very long time since ive eaten any sort of food that once had a heartbeat...but also because i really liked it....it tasted so good and i felt awful for it....i think i drank about 10 gallons of water to try and flush it all out of me....haha...
my birthday is coming up in about a week or so....i hate celebrating my birth...not because i dont think i should have been born but because it seems like people feel obligated or forced to buy me things or say happy birthday....i would rather on some completely unannounced day be totally surprised with a party or something...that way it showed people werent doing it because they felt like they had to but because they wanted to...
so this year when i blow out the candles on my cake im not going to make a wish....instead....im going to make my dad make a wish....why you may or may not ask...because i know as well everyone else who knows and loves my padre that he doesnt have many birthdays left....we highly doubt he sees his next one because he starts up chemo and radiation treatments again for the bagillionth time in march...hes so weak as is that i know this is only going to do him more harm than good....sooooo since this is the case i figure he should have all the birthday wishes possible....he deserves them more than i do anyway....man oh man....i love my padre...
ok well this is long...and boring...and absolutely pointless and i have more cold pizza to eat and thats hard to do when you are typing....so i hope you all have a lovely day filled with all kinds of fun things....take care...xoxoxoxxxxxxxxxxxo...
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you are just too sweet.
i hope nothing but good things find you.
xo