eyesoopenned

ive been clean now for 64 days...it has been the longest 64 days of my life....at times i think of how easy it would be to fall into all that shit again...to not have to think about anything or feel for anyone except for the drugs.....i tend to say that i dont really regret those 2 years of my life, that they helped make me the person i am today....for the most part though i think thats just a lie i tell myself to get over the fact i wasted 2 years of my life due to my very own stupidity....


in other news

im getting my hair all cut off again..(what a great way to change the topic)...i like the dreads that i have right now but i miss the short hair...i miss not having to do anything with it....so its getting chopped off and re-dyed black....::excitement::

i work a 12 hour shift today....it wouldnt be so bad if i was working up front at the gas station but no...my asshole boss decided to put me back at the subway today....i hate working at subway....its awful...however i will be working with jason today....he works up front while im stuck in the back....but we'll still have fun and he'll manage to somehow come back to make fun and flirt(?) with me....im considering it flirting because it makes me feel better about myself...haha...

this boy has got me so hooked on him...im scared of how fast im falling for him....im not sure if i want to fall in love again...once seemed like enough...but i guess ill bend the rules for this boy....who knows maybe ill see if he wants to go to the museum or something on friday....does that sound good???i dont know...what would you do if you were me??