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i just awoke from the most vivid dream ive ever dreamt....im still touching myself to see if im really awake....unfortunately i am....it was about jason....i could feel everything he did to me...his hands sliding up and down my thighs...his teeth gently nibbling at my ears...his lips pulling at mine....ahhhh...this boy has got me....im not sure what is about him....but he makes me feel like i havent felt in a while...its more than then physical attration with this one (like it is with most other people) its an emotional and mental one as well....its the whole thing....if i havent fallen for him already then i know for sure that im well on my way of doing so....

work was long yesterday....but....it was ok....me jason gene and paul got drunk off of the jim that paul so willingly bought....we had a grand old time....

jason drove me home after work...i wanted to lean in and kiss him goodnight...but im a chickenshit...so i left it at "thanks for the ride home hun ill see you tomorrow"....fuck man why am im so lame....he knows that i like him....fuck everyone does....and yet he still talks to me and still flirts with me and blah why dont i just ask him out....hmph....oh well...

last night when i checked my email i found my model application waiting for me from missy...im nervous about filling it out and sending in a picture....oh how i would love to model for this site....i guess we shall see...

ok well im going back to bed now....im leaving at 3 for the goldfinger show...yeah i decided to go....how could i pass them up??? i just wish i didnt have to work the midngiht shift afterwards....well have a lovely day everyone and take care....xoxo...