eyerush

Ok, so it's a little tricky.

I have the perfect girlfriend. She's smarter than me and beautiful and artistic and opinionated. She's sexy (although maybe litttle conservtive for this pervs tastes). Basically all around wonderful. So, why am I even being tempted by the exexexexexfriend with benefits (she wasn't even a girlfriend) now? If there isn't anything lacking in my current relationship, why would I even be considering anything else? The worst part is that she is a bitch. Tonight, when I turned her down, she took home my brother instead. (I know, I know, shame on him. That is a different story. I have little respect for my younger two brothers.) It shouldn't be an issue cause she isn't suppossed to mean anything to me but I still have that small pang of jealousy. It probably has something to do with the amount of achohol I've consumed in the last couple of hours. it isn't even worth the time it is taking to write this.

I was good.
I didn't necessarily want to be.
But I was.

And I'm happy because of it. It makes me wanna hang out with the old lady even more.

Still though, it's a little ego boosting to know that I still could.

I'm going to bed soon by myself. And although I may think naughty thoughts about certain other people, I'll know that anything that becomes of it will be ok because it will be by myself and not with some half wit that isnt a fraction of the girl I am dating.

I am drunk. Excuse this if it was incoherent.