eyeris

So today I finally came to the undesired conclusion that I have let go of some friends of mine. Well...I should rephrase that, I finally came to the undesired conclusion that three of my best friends have disowned me. Blacklisted me if you will. It's a really shitty thought and it hurts. Sure, I have been dumped by boys and that hurts, but when three of your best girls decide they want nothing to do with you anymore is a completely different type of hurt. I was always under the impression that a true friend would stick with you through no matter what. These ladies were so quick to drop me. I did some stupid things while being held by the "demon" that is and due to those few stupid acts they decided to never be friends with me again. I went though a year of hell to losing everything I had. It was a struggle to get off it all and when I finally did I was good for about two months. Then I messed it up again. I understand why they couldn't do it anymore with me, but they knew my plan was to get better and become the person I was before all the bull. I did it....but I did it alone. I went through one of the biggest mind transformations and honestly doing it alone is what I needed. I was hoping they would at least start talking to me again, start building up what we had before. They won't though, I just get ignored. Only one talks to me when she deems necessary and the other two barely say a word. The best part about it all is all three of them hang out now and I introduced them to each other. Only one girl has stayed true to me...Hayley. This chick is my ride or die girl. I love her more than anything and I know she will be there till the end. Her and I have been through hell and back together and I know that she won't ditch out on me.I have her back till the end and I know she has mine. Plain. and. Simple.

I love this beezey.

(there will pictures up shortly...this girl is gorgeous, you have nooo idea)