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Leaving for Thanks Rave in about an hour. Not so much in a rave mood, but I haven't been very social lately, so I might as well make some new friends, right? Eh, well that's what I'm telling myself.
Honestly, I'd rather stay in and watch the movies I rented... It's pretty sad that the people from blockbusters notices when they haven't seen you in a week and wondered where you've been lately and calls you by your first name and even adds you on face book. That just shows what an exciting life I have. Lol I know that store better than the manager. I don't know why I never got a job there when I was younger.
Anyway, I think I'll go to San Francisco, make a quick appearance to shut my friends up, then go home and head straight for my bed and pop in a movie and heat up some left overs. I hate being by myself all the time. I think that's what hurts the most about being single. After being with someone for so long, you forget what it's like to be alone. And it sucks. Going home to an empty room to an empty bed with no one to talk to. At least I don't have to look at his stuff anymore. Although, I will admit, sometimes I torture myself for some unknown reason and read old anniversary cards, birthday cards, etc. I forgot to throw out the letters he use to write me. Fuck, that's a downer to think about. Stupid men. GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!! Lol Note to self; NEVER make ANYONE your everything because when they leave you, you have NOTHING.
Sorry I'm a downer tonight. November 23rds our anniversary and Thanksgiving was the first time he ever said he loved me so I guess I'm still sensitive. Anyway, I hope everyone's have a good Friday. NO WORK TOMORROW! YES!!! Enjoy the rest of your weekend everyone