Friday Aug 05, 2005

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No sleep. Overworked. Haven't eaten all day - a shock, I know. Walked home in 31'C heat (excluding humidity). Been feeling run down and sick all day. I think I need some T.L.C.

Heard some awful news today. Some friends aren't doing too well... Two are in detox, one is not by his own choice... he's in there lock-down style and may be hauled out of Province for treatment. Sketched out hardcore from the sounds of it. Who knows when anyone will see him again. Another apparently is in a gang, doin' the drug deal thing to make some cash. A really horrid gang at that. Guess his debts caught up to him and now he's making "easy money". Kinda scared that the next time I see him will be his funeral.

It's a fucking shame.

I had opportunities, multiple opportunities, to prevent both situations before they came anywhere close to this point. Not even opportunities to have tried, they were open chances to have stopped this shit from happening. What the hell kind of friend am I? I'll tell you what kind, the kind that should be shot. blackeyed

I'm going to bed. I think I need to stare at the walls and just... - sigh - Just think for a while I guess.
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acidevangelist:
Some people are hellbent on destroying themselves, there is nothing that anybody can do for them.
dragon9:
Don't beat yourself up for them, I'm guessing they are old enough to make their own decisions. You still can try to help them now. Support you freind in hab and talk to the gang banger smile . Just show them they are not alone, it's probably more than some of their other friends did for them. I'd bet they really need a friend now and you can be there for them. smile Chear up beautiful smile
Smile and the world smiles with you . . . biggrin

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