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Last night I did such a stupid thing, I really should have known better, I took my sternum piercing out. All I wanted to do was give it a good clean, I normally do it in the bath and it's fine. I don't know what came over me to take it out. I mean I spent have an hour trying to unscrew it, and it was tight for a reason. I'm really upset now, I know is just a piercing but I only had it 3 months, and it just reminds me of how I can't leave anything alone, I'm not an impatient person but I do get anxious, so when I'm thinking of doing something I have to do it, or it plays on my mind, and sensabillity won't over rule it, like in this case.

Also I really hate these dreams I am having, I have an evil sister in law, and brother for that matter,(not biological). And for the past number of months I'm dreaming that I'm shouting at them, doing horrid pranks on them. Yes I would love to do this stuff in real life, but whilst I'm having the dream I feel really angry... Ok even talking about it now hurts and there is way to much to explain in this blog. I know why I'm having the dream and the meaning behind it, but I want to dream about ponies and puppys instead.