explosiveorchid

I'm just so fucking sad....

this is going to be the hardest+sadest week ever.... my roomate is leaving town... and she won't come back to live with me for... about... 2/3 years... not sure, the thing is she just came as an exchange student to her university and now... she's gotta go back home and finish up school over there....
that sucks... I really can't imagine life without Monica, we did pretty much everything together...
we hung out almost everysingle day of the week...
we'd stay home and watch some films...
we'd cook together... well... actually I did all the cooking and she just stood there and watch...
we'd talk... really really late at night...
we'd help each other with school assingments...
we'd go to every single concert together...
we'd get either drunk or high together...
we'd go to every single club party or bar together...
she made friends with my old friends...
she's my sister... though I'm an only child!
fuck... I'm already crying...
she's not going to be here on wednesday when they say if my project was accepted or not...

feeling depressed already...

and... currently looking for a new appartment... and roomate...
fucking hate this!

it's funny the way you get so attached to someone... funny how someone who was just a stranger who got to live with you... suddenly becomes your sister... and... I've had tons of roomates throughout my student life and never been so close... never like this...



anyways... luv y'all
wish me luck finding a new place...