I began Suicidegirls in 2007 at the age of 19. I had learned about SG in a warped tour line at age 16 when two girls came up and asked me if I was a part of "The Suicidegirls". "...what, whats's that?", I asked. As they explained to me, my eyes lit up. I could never be that, I wasn't pretty enough or skinny enough to model, but I was excited to hear about this whole new world. When I got back home, I soon discovered this world and always kept in in the back of my head.
For two years after that I battled many things. Drug addictions and mental instability to name a few, but I conquered those and began the healing process when I was 18 and moved with my father (whom I had just met via Myspace, but thats another story)
I turned 19 and had the spontaneous idea to submit selfie photos to SG-which they accepted! My heart pounded as @taye emailed me and told me she was ready to shoot in a few weeks! I had no idea what I was doing when she drove up, I even tried to cancel. I had nothing to wear and had never been in front of the camera before. But she was so sweet, helped me pick out a spot in my house and clothes and made me feel so comfortable. Now, granted Ive come a long way from that set, and I can't bare to look at that side of me anymore, but hey it got accepted and thats all that mattered!
A few years later I decided to shoot again, only this was the time Member Review started up. The set got bought but never made to the front page. It was called "Bedroom Eyes" and was a favorite of mine. I shot a few that didn't get bought, and came back to shooting again, this time with @lorelei and after that I shot with @dwam-both got accepted!
I have a new set coming out shot by @cdo that I believe is my favorite thus far. I think I've come a long way.
I've been to an SG prom in SF, a few Comic Cons, Hell City in both locations, and have attended lots of shootfests. I've met so many girls that I can call my friends @quinne @sunshine @milloux @ackley @venom @bixton @king @callioppe @lyxzen @raleigh @ecco and so many more. @missy has paved a way for us crazy weirdos to have our own sorority, and the only hazing we do is butt spanking and titty texts! I will forever cherish @sean and welcoming me into his place over the years.
SG has been a huge part of my life. I hope someday I can be a part bigger than just a model :) But for now, keep your eyes peeled for next month as my set goes into Member Review!
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lavish_:
so sweeet! Ugh I love hearing about everyone's journeys with SG. It warms my heart ^.^ so glad you joined back in 2007! <3
s1l3nt:
Such an awesome story, I will keep my eyes peeled for your next set!