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back from vacation.
all that optimism vaporized like so much rubbing alcohol on hot pavement.

fucking missed my court date today. i honestly must be the most functional retard the world has yet seen.
so i get a citation for not wearing my helmet in a skatepark, then i ignore it, get a warrant issued for my arrest, go to the police station and get a new court date, promise myself, cross my fucking heart not to be such a...
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" . . . where there was nature and earth, life and water, I saw a desert landscape that was unending, resembling some sort of crater, so devoid of reason and light and spirit that the mind could not grasp it on any sort of conscious level and if you came close the mind would reel backward, unable to take it in. It was a...
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diagnosis: psychosis.
symptoms: regrets of the past, anxiety of the future.
prescription: daily ethanol therapy.
prognosis: untimely death due to liver failure.

people who have had, are going to have, like, would like to have children are my sworn enemies.

i saw a dead people exhibit the other day.
there should be more of them.
been drinking and not doing much else. sleeping and dreaming.
peace.

gahhh.
it's too hot to sleep in LA. new house has no A/C, which is the true poverty line. no. that's a joke.

been keepin to drinking, trying to get to class in the a.m. and that's alright.
bowling too.
patiently awaiting the future which will be different, if not better.

life is pretty fucking dull to tell the truth. i saw Mm, and they...
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damn MCAT prep class.
i can't stay awake.
got a DUI.
very much down in spirits.
very busy doing almost nothing.
tired all the time.
trying to quit all bad habits.
need pills. lots of pills.
going to try reading more.
lots of projects on hiatus.
DUIs are expensive.
lots to do. lots to do.

my triumphant return.

boring stories ahead.

first i finally got my degree. well not quite, since i still have library books out, but i can almost taste the useless document.

after that i drank exactly one liter of jameson per day for about a week and a half.

after that i went to sweden, denmark, and the netherlands, and i fell in love, with a...
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"better you than me"

"well, at least they died for a good cause"

"what cause was that?"

"freedom"

"you think we waste [arabs] for freedom? this is a slaughter. if i'm gonna get my balls blown off for a word... my word is "poontang"