Well, it's Saturday. I figured I'd catch up on some things around the apartment before my body decides to get overly fatigued. My clothes are everywhere so firstly I need to hang some clothes up. Secondly make my bed. Thirdly read the articles I need to read for this graduate course on consciousness. And finally, I need to shower and clean my bathroom (actually this should be first). Life is going okay. I have so much I need to do still, but this are slowly coming together in completion. My power chair should be in next month, which I'm super excited about. I've been so self conscious about it, but then I came to the realization that if someone judges me for having to use one, think me less sexy, less cool because I use them, then those people are shallow assholes and I'd rather not hang out with them. I've been writing a bit on my thesis, or researching a bit for it anyways. It feels nice to get back in the groove.
The whole ex experience, I'm totally over. I talked about it with a few friends, and family and reached some conclusions about what upset me about the whole thing. I was obviously tired, but I was also angry at her for being so "okay" with not being friends. It's not that she would have been a great friend, but rather that she was once my best friend and I lost that. That was not okay with me and that's what made me angry. Anyways, the emotions about the whole thing are over and I hope she's doing well in her new life.
Other than that, things are busy but really good. I was just reflecting on what a positive thing therapy was for me. I think prior to therapy, something like the ex siting would have ruined my whole week, but now it lasted for a day or two.
Medically, things are stable, but I have a heart test to go to in October. It's a routine thing, because my condition will eventually effect my heart (so I'm told) and weaken it, so I need to monitor it. It's scary sometimes, and this time I'll be on my own in the doctors office, but it's something I need to confront and learn to deal with.
Anyways, lately I've been listening to this:
I've also been really digging Herakut's work. It's so good. Here's a vid, of them painting:
Another artist I really like lately is Nicole Florian, here's a pic of some of his work:
Till next time.
The whole ex experience, I'm totally over. I talked about it with a few friends, and family and reached some conclusions about what upset me about the whole thing. I was obviously tired, but I was also angry at her for being so "okay" with not being friends. It's not that she would have been a great friend, but rather that she was once my best friend and I lost that. That was not okay with me and that's what made me angry. Anyways, the emotions about the whole thing are over and I hope she's doing well in her new life.
Other than that, things are busy but really good. I was just reflecting on what a positive thing therapy was for me. I think prior to therapy, something like the ex siting would have ruined my whole week, but now it lasted for a day or two.
Medically, things are stable, but I have a heart test to go to in October. It's a routine thing, because my condition will eventually effect my heart (so I'm told) and weaken it, so I need to monitor it. It's scary sometimes, and this time I'll be on my own in the doctors office, but it's something I need to confront and learn to deal with.
Anyways, lately I've been listening to this:
I've also been really digging Herakut's work. It's so good. Here's a vid, of them painting:
Another artist I really like lately is Nicole Florian, here's a pic of some of his work:
Till next time.