Well, I think that I'm officially mindfucked- I just don't think that my brain fires off the way that it should- Like for the past few years....
This post stars out like this...
...... Once apon a time, in a land far far far away- there lived this guy, right- and this guy, he met this girl right-( now, at the time, she was ....well ... the latest hot chickky to date.nothing special- right? wrong..)
Everthing leading up to and during this relationship was wierd coincidence.. the way we met 1 year before we went out with each other- the way she was my friend's bosses daughter- The way our lives secretly parelleled each others.
Well sports fans, we lasted for 3 years- and I allowed my temper to get the best of the relatinship, and well- the rest is history- literally-Up in fuckin' smoke....
It's been close to three years since we've together- Strike that- four.. And lately (the past year) I've really yearned for her in my life... In eachothers lives. and recently I told myself that I had to contact her and let her know how i felt about things- Bear in mind that she has called me a few times over the years and has been nothing but pleasant with me-
I have also heard from friends parents that she has expressed that she made a mistake, and wanted to get back together to see if there was still a spark..
However, The note and flowers she recieved werent recieved well- A few months prior I had a tattoo done and (I know it was wrong) It was some of her artwork that she has on herback- part of the piece was ommitted but still the same piece only in a different location.
Now, I was 95% certain that she wouldn't mind it with respect to our past....... But the latter was correct. Unfortunately, she sees me as having gone off the deep end- Of course, this isnt the case- I'm just tired of the whole dating scene, and have realized throughout the years that this was and is the woman for me......
Maybe I'm imagining all of this, but the coincideces keep hapening- crossing each others paths, people bringing up things pertinent to her all the time- The worst was when I was flirting with this girl at a party, she couldn't remember my name, so in turn, I was calling her a different one as well. HMMmm well, she says "why don't you call me Stacie, hmm? why don't you call me ( enter my x's name here- mind you, it's an uncommon name)?" I almost dropped my drink- I had to leave the room, and the silence that she created by saying that around all of my friends was eerie to say the least. Sidenote: she is new to the area, and has no poss. way to know that name- My latest fucked up adventure!
Mindfucked..........
This post is dedicated to my one and only- I love you ............
One day she will truly know that if she doesnt already.......
This post stars out like this...
...... Once apon a time, in a land far far far away- there lived this guy, right- and this guy, he met this girl right-( now, at the time, she was ....well ... the latest hot chickky to date.nothing special- right? wrong..)
Everthing leading up to and during this relationship was wierd coincidence.. the way we met 1 year before we went out with each other- the way she was my friend's bosses daughter- The way our lives secretly parelleled each others.
Well sports fans, we lasted for 3 years- and I allowed my temper to get the best of the relatinship, and well- the rest is history- literally-Up in fuckin' smoke....
It's been close to three years since we've together- Strike that- four.. And lately (the past year) I've really yearned for her in my life... In eachothers lives. and recently I told myself that I had to contact her and let her know how i felt about things- Bear in mind that she has called me a few times over the years and has been nothing but pleasant with me-
I have also heard from friends parents that she has expressed that she made a mistake, and wanted to get back together to see if there was still a spark..
However, The note and flowers she recieved werent recieved well- A few months prior I had a tattoo done and (I know it was wrong) It was some of her artwork that she has on herback- part of the piece was ommitted but still the same piece only in a different location.
Now, I was 95% certain that she wouldn't mind it with respect to our past....... But the latter was correct. Unfortunately, she sees me as having gone off the deep end- Of course, this isnt the case- I'm just tired of the whole dating scene, and have realized throughout the years that this was and is the woman for me......
Maybe I'm imagining all of this, but the coincideces keep hapening- crossing each others paths, people bringing up things pertinent to her all the time- The worst was when I was flirting with this girl at a party, she couldn't remember my name, so in turn, I was calling her a different one as well. HMMmm well, she says "why don't you call me Stacie, hmm? why don't you call me ( enter my x's name here- mind you, it's an uncommon name)?" I almost dropped my drink- I had to leave the room, and the silence that she created by saying that around all of my friends was eerie to say the least. Sidenote: she is new to the area, and has no poss. way to know that name- My latest fucked up adventure!
Mindfucked..........
This post is dedicated to my one and only- I love you ............
One day she will truly know that if she doesnt already.......
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scarydoll:
Thanks for the compliment on the drawing. Yes, it's my husband's work. It's not our dog, but he is very cute! 
delilla:
dude that suxs, i was in the same situation you were a few moths ago, hope it gets better