What the fuck is up with me meeting so many really hott guys recently who actually seem at least mildly interested in me. It's fucking insane! I'm not supposed to get hott guys, guys that other girls would be jealous I had, I'm supposed to get guys like Steve and Joe who I love because of their personalities, but other girls don't get angry about me dating. Now, I've gone out on dates with several really attractive men in the last week and I don't know what to do with myself! I meet one who introduces me to another or I run into one at one of the places I frequent or they want to be my friend on myspace and it blows my mind. If I would have known I was capable of attracting these men, I don't think I would have been so down on myself for so long. I mean, I gues I do have a decent enough personality that even if I'm not a 10, I've got plenty going on for me afterall. *shrugs*
Tonight just kinda put a nail in this all for me. I hung out with Rich, really really cute Puerto Rican guy, earlier in the evening for hours and I played with his dog and it was great. I love his dog and he was tons of fun to just chill with. Then, after he leaves and I'm getting into my pjs, Mike IMs me and this guy is just hott - real tall, really nicely built, nice tan, perfect legs *drool* and he played Lacrosse all through high school and college so you know he's athletic and he got a fucking 4.0 in grad school so he's smart too. Talk about a girls' dream man right there. And he's actually interested in me! We hung out tonight watching some stupid show and making fun of it and kinda half cuddling and talking and laughing and telling each other funny stories and then when I left, he invited me back over tomorrow so I could watch the lacrosse national championships with him and he can teach me a little about the sport. WHAT THE FUCK!? I'm not supposed to get this caliber of guy, but I am. I have to be doing something right, and I have no clue what it is. *shrugs*
I just don't know. I mean, I can't complain too much, but I wish I would have known (or even know) this secret a year or something ago. I mean, I still don't know what it is, but I obviously am doing it now. Shit.
Tonight just kinda put a nail in this all for me. I hung out with Rich, really really cute Puerto Rican guy, earlier in the evening for hours and I played with his dog and it was great. I love his dog and he was tons of fun to just chill with. Then, after he leaves and I'm getting into my pjs, Mike IMs me and this guy is just hott - real tall, really nicely built, nice tan, perfect legs *drool* and he played Lacrosse all through high school and college so you know he's athletic and he got a fucking 4.0 in grad school so he's smart too. Talk about a girls' dream man right there. And he's actually interested in me! We hung out tonight watching some stupid show and making fun of it and kinda half cuddling and talking and laughing and telling each other funny stories and then when I left, he invited me back over tomorrow so I could watch the lacrosse national championships with him and he can teach me a little about the sport. WHAT THE FUCK!? I'm not supposed to get this caliber of guy, but I am. I have to be doing something right, and I have no clue what it is. *shrugs*
I just don't know. I mean, I can't complain too much, but I wish I would have known (or even know) this secret a year or something ago. I mean, I still don't know what it is, but I obviously am doing it now. Shit.