Yeah, that's pretty much the worst title ever, but you all can deal with it. :-P
I guess I'll start with the morning and work my way until now.
This morning I was woken up at 6:45a by my mother. I had to drive her to work so I could have the car for the day. Normally I would have been okay, but I took my sleeping pill way later than nomral last night so I was still a bit groggy when it came time to drive her in. Thus, she drove herself there and I drove the car home. On the way back that way, after going home and changing, I saw a deer and the car that had hit it. So sad.
But I still made it to my doctor appointment with plenty of time to spare. Which brings me to some interesting news: Dr. Fazlani asked me a ton of questiongs about how I'm feeling and if I'm improving and the like. We got really indepth with discussion of my anxiety and stress as well as my depression and physical health as well. He's glad to see that Dr. Patel (sleep specialist) put me on Trazadone to help me sleep since it is also an anti-depressant. He was also very "proud" to see that I'm working to really lose weight and have lost as much as I have already - any my blood pressure is waaaaaay lower too but that's also partially a function of my anxiety and depression subsiding some. Though all things are pointing to progress, he did, however, double my dosage of Lexapro again. He's hoping that by really hitting me hard with this dose as well as the Trazadone he'll be able to get me into clinical remission in the next month or two, regarding my mental health. He also thinks, that if I'm sure to get in all my vitamins and echinacea and the like, he should be able to get me to clinical remission with my physical ailments as well. This is super exciting news! But, until I'm close to 100%, he still wants to see me at least every 4 weeks. :-\
Following this uplifting appointment, I decided to be proactive and make myself an appointment with the orthopaedic and sports medicine doctor in the office next door. I think I'm fairly pleased with this decision on my behalf. I mean, my shoulder has really started to flare up and cause me some problems again: It aches all the damn time, the joint is stiff, my range of motion is total crap, I'm always uncomfortable, it makes sleeping harder on my body, etc. I'm really hoping and praying I won't need surgery to get it working better, but the longer this goes on, the more likely of an option it becomes. :-P But, with this appointment, I'm hoping to figure out what needs to be done through MRIs and get to it to fix it. Also, I'm hoping to get my left hip looked at since it hasn't been quite normal since that fall freshman year.
Well, following these great adventures I headed to the gym to work out for a piece. I swear to god, the first 5 to 10 minutes I was on the eliptical, one of the male trainers was just staring at me. Tomorrow I'll know to wear a much more controlling sports bra. I mean, it's like the man had never seen boobs before. Yes, I have them. Yes, the are ample. No, I do not particularly care for you getting paid to oogle me while I'm trying to work out. Not cool. But at least it was a great work out. Thirty minutes, high gear, on the eliptical (2.23 miles and 418 calories) and another twelve on the treadmill to help me cool down (.48 miles and 40 calories), plus I did about 5-10 minutes on a bike, but I don't remember what I did because generally I hate those damn things. All told, it was an amazing work out and I felt great afterwards, so I'm going again tomorrow after I drop my mom off at work. :-D
The rest of my day was pretty uneventful: refilled my pill boxes (the one for night has 4 pills a day and the one for day has 9 = 13 pills a day!), ate a little something (though I don't have a real appetite today), took a nice nap, picked up my mom, lounged around reading the paper and lusting after all the great concerts that are coming to town, talked to my dad briefly enough that he knows I'm anticipating going to Zak's thesis show on Sunday and church with mom but will try to make brunch, and wrote this.
Now, after I grab a quick snack (one of my pills makes my tummy very upset if I don't take it with food) and take all my night time pills, I'm headed to read a bit and hit the hey.
Night kids!
Plans for weekend!!
Friday:
-take mom to work
-work out
-shower
-take brother to dad's
-pick mom up from work
-weigh-in
-run by half-priced books :-D
-maybe drop some stuff off at Plato's Closet (I like money!)
-maybe see Saves the Day at Bogart's
Saturday:
-hang around the house getting stuff done
-if the last two non concert items weren't accomplished Friday, do them
-work out
-read?
-???
Sunday:
-church with mom
-brunch with dad, Ian, and Frank (it's my dad's birthday)
-Zak's Thesis Presentation!
-???
-Grey's Anatomy
I guess I'll start with the morning and work my way until now.
This morning I was woken up at 6:45a by my mother. I had to drive her to work so I could have the car for the day. Normally I would have been okay, but I took my sleeping pill way later than nomral last night so I was still a bit groggy when it came time to drive her in. Thus, she drove herself there and I drove the car home. On the way back that way, after going home and changing, I saw a deer and the car that had hit it. So sad.
But I still made it to my doctor appointment with plenty of time to spare. Which brings me to some interesting news: Dr. Fazlani asked me a ton of questiongs about how I'm feeling and if I'm improving and the like. We got really indepth with discussion of my anxiety and stress as well as my depression and physical health as well. He's glad to see that Dr. Patel (sleep specialist) put me on Trazadone to help me sleep since it is also an anti-depressant. He was also very "proud" to see that I'm working to really lose weight and have lost as much as I have already - any my blood pressure is waaaaaay lower too but that's also partially a function of my anxiety and depression subsiding some. Though all things are pointing to progress, he did, however, double my dosage of Lexapro again. He's hoping that by really hitting me hard with this dose as well as the Trazadone he'll be able to get me into clinical remission in the next month or two, regarding my mental health. He also thinks, that if I'm sure to get in all my vitamins and echinacea and the like, he should be able to get me to clinical remission with my physical ailments as well. This is super exciting news! But, until I'm close to 100%, he still wants to see me at least every 4 weeks. :-\
Following this uplifting appointment, I decided to be proactive and make myself an appointment with the orthopaedic and sports medicine doctor in the office next door. I think I'm fairly pleased with this decision on my behalf. I mean, my shoulder has really started to flare up and cause me some problems again: It aches all the damn time, the joint is stiff, my range of motion is total crap, I'm always uncomfortable, it makes sleeping harder on my body, etc. I'm really hoping and praying I won't need surgery to get it working better, but the longer this goes on, the more likely of an option it becomes. :-P But, with this appointment, I'm hoping to figure out what needs to be done through MRIs and get to it to fix it. Also, I'm hoping to get my left hip looked at since it hasn't been quite normal since that fall freshman year.
Well, following these great adventures I headed to the gym to work out for a piece. I swear to god, the first 5 to 10 minutes I was on the eliptical, one of the male trainers was just staring at me. Tomorrow I'll know to wear a much more controlling sports bra. I mean, it's like the man had never seen boobs before. Yes, I have them. Yes, the are ample. No, I do not particularly care for you getting paid to oogle me while I'm trying to work out. Not cool. But at least it was a great work out. Thirty minutes, high gear, on the eliptical (2.23 miles and 418 calories) and another twelve on the treadmill to help me cool down (.48 miles and 40 calories), plus I did about 5-10 minutes on a bike, but I don't remember what I did because generally I hate those damn things. All told, it was an amazing work out and I felt great afterwards, so I'm going again tomorrow after I drop my mom off at work. :-D
The rest of my day was pretty uneventful: refilled my pill boxes (the one for night has 4 pills a day and the one for day has 9 = 13 pills a day!), ate a little something (though I don't have a real appetite today), took a nice nap, picked up my mom, lounged around reading the paper and lusting after all the great concerts that are coming to town, talked to my dad briefly enough that he knows I'm anticipating going to Zak's thesis show on Sunday and church with mom but will try to make brunch, and wrote this.
Now, after I grab a quick snack (one of my pills makes my tummy very upset if I don't take it with food) and take all my night time pills, I'm headed to read a bit and hit the hey.
Night kids!
Plans for weekend!!
Friday:
-take mom to work
-work out
-shower
-take brother to dad's
-pick mom up from work
-weigh-in
-run by half-priced books :-D
-maybe drop some stuff off at Plato's Closet (I like money!)
-maybe see Saves the Day at Bogart's
Saturday:
-hang around the house getting stuff done
-if the last two non concert items weren't accomplished Friday, do them
-work out
-read?
-???
Sunday:
-church with mom
-brunch with dad, Ian, and Frank (it's my dad's birthday)
-Zak's Thesis Presentation!
-???
-Grey's Anatomy