Since the rumors are starting to get back to my ears, I'm going to set the record straight now...
Yes, I have in the past suffered from a moderate eating disorder and was diagnosed as ED-NOS with exercise bulimic tendencies.
Yes, I did have to go through an out-patient program for a while in middle school.
Yes, it does flair up sometimes when I really start to hate myself or I'm really stressed or depressed.
No, this does not mean I am not eating.
No, this does not mean I need to be babysat or watched when I do or do not eat.
No, this does not mean I need your help.
As much as I appreciate your good intentions, there is really nothing you can do that will make this better. I do eat. I ate every day last week. I had days when I looked down and realized I had only eaten a very little and I made myself eat more. I'm watching out for myself. I know it's unhealthy and I recognize the pattern in myself well enough now that I can catch it early on. I'm going to start seeing someone soon for my other issues, so I'm sure this will be touched on.
So, thanks for your concern, but please, everyone, stop talking about this issue and me and don't try to help. As much as I love you all and understand that you may want to help, this is something that you can't help with and you should try to understand that if you can.
Thanks.
Yes, I have in the past suffered from a moderate eating disorder and was diagnosed as ED-NOS with exercise bulimic tendencies.
Yes, I did have to go through an out-patient program for a while in middle school.
Yes, it does flair up sometimes when I really start to hate myself or I'm really stressed or depressed.
No, this does not mean I am not eating.
No, this does not mean I need to be babysat or watched when I do or do not eat.
No, this does not mean I need your help.
As much as I appreciate your good intentions, there is really nothing you can do that will make this better. I do eat. I ate every day last week. I had days when I looked down and realized I had only eaten a very little and I made myself eat more. I'm watching out for myself. I know it's unhealthy and I recognize the pattern in myself well enough now that I can catch it early on. I'm going to start seeing someone soon for my other issues, so I'm sure this will be touched on.
So, thanks for your concern, but please, everyone, stop talking about this issue and me and don't try to help. As much as I love you all and understand that you may want to help, this is something that you can't help with and you should try to understand that if you can.
Thanks.
fatoperaguy:
It sounds as though you have everything under control. Good for you.