Every admit to something that is genuinely bothering in hopes to figure out what's going on and realize later that things you were told by multiple people and things you were feeling were completely wrong and wind up upsetting someone just because you wanted to be sure?
It sucks.
I'm sorry too, but I think in the long run, it was better that I got it off my chest and confronted it then instead of dealing in more assumptions or ignoring it all together.
Anyways, I found out that sleeping pills don't like me. I took one and slept for 12 freaking hours straight without waking up once. I honestly don't think I moved either. But Dr. Little is nice and is letting me make up what I missed.
And I discussed with Steve a bit tonight and that felt nice, here is the conversation I had with Lisa about all of that situation:
Yuki Sama03: so steve is being a butt again, eh?
EvyWasHere: yes and no
EvyWasHere: I talked to him about it later that night and then I had another mini talk with him today
EvyWasHere: He just doesn't know how to be a boyfriend yet.
Yuki Sama03: ah
EvyWasHere: He doesn't have the experience level with relationships that I've gotten used to.
Yuki Sama03: i see
Yuki Sama03: i'm sure that could be a problem
EvyWasHere: So I have to sit there and go, "No, Steve, that's not how you do/handle that. You might want to try it this way."
EvyWasHere: Then he goes, "Ooooooooh, good idea."
Yuki Sama03: oh geez
Yuki Sama03: sounds trroublesome
EvyWasHere: I mean, I'm only the third girl he's dated and his first really real girlfriend. I expected him to be kinda oblivious to some stuff, but it's alot of stuff.
EvyWasHere: And he's trying and does better, most of the time, but sometimes, he loses.
Yuki Sama03: yeah
Yuki Sama03: that's how phil was
EvyWasHere: lol
EvyWasHere: Isn't it the best ever? </sarcasm>
Yuki Sama03: lol oh yeah...loads of fun!
EvyWasHere: Boys, I swear.
Yuki Sama03: pain in the butt
EvyWasHere: If I didn't like him so much and know he felt the same and was really trying, I'd think I was better off without him.
Anyways, off to bed. Must be up early for a Thursday tomorrow.
It sucks.
I'm sorry too, but I think in the long run, it was better that I got it off my chest and confronted it then instead of dealing in more assumptions or ignoring it all together.
Anyways, I found out that sleeping pills don't like me. I took one and slept for 12 freaking hours straight without waking up once. I honestly don't think I moved either. But Dr. Little is nice and is letting me make up what I missed.
And I discussed with Steve a bit tonight and that felt nice, here is the conversation I had with Lisa about all of that situation:
Yuki Sama03: so steve is being a butt again, eh?
EvyWasHere: yes and no
EvyWasHere: I talked to him about it later that night and then I had another mini talk with him today
EvyWasHere: He just doesn't know how to be a boyfriend yet.
Yuki Sama03: ah
EvyWasHere: He doesn't have the experience level with relationships that I've gotten used to.
Yuki Sama03: i see
Yuki Sama03: i'm sure that could be a problem
EvyWasHere: So I have to sit there and go, "No, Steve, that's not how you do/handle that. You might want to try it this way."
EvyWasHere: Then he goes, "Ooooooooh, good idea."
Yuki Sama03: oh geez
Yuki Sama03: sounds trroublesome
EvyWasHere: I mean, I'm only the third girl he's dated and his first really real girlfriend. I expected him to be kinda oblivious to some stuff, but it's alot of stuff.
EvyWasHere: And he's trying and does better, most of the time, but sometimes, he loses.
Yuki Sama03: yeah
Yuki Sama03: that's how phil was
EvyWasHere: lol
EvyWasHere: Isn't it the best ever? </sarcasm>
Yuki Sama03: lol oh yeah...loads of fun!
EvyWasHere: Boys, I swear.
Yuki Sama03: pain in the butt
EvyWasHere: If I didn't like him so much and know he felt the same and was really trying, I'd think I was better off without him.
Anyways, off to bed. Must be up early for a Thursday tomorrow.
hope today is/was well for you dear.
meh guys
<3