evilrizla

Ok this is the week where I try to get motivated.

I'm still not smoking (yay!) so really I should feel full of energy & get-up-and-go. But I don't - its probably the drugs.

I'm in a very lucky position ... my life at the moment is quite nice because I am taking a year off before (possibly) going to Uni. I am SUPPOSED to be working during this year to give me a bit of ker-ching to tide me over during my poor, deprived student days. But I'm not - and its not my fault - my dad keeps giving me money which I then spend on drink, drugs and lap dances. He's sorted me a flat and pays the rent on it so I can get a bit of independence but I still take all my clothes home to be washed and go there for dinner. He bought me a car too. He LOVES me

But all this doesn't make me motivated to actually get work, it makes me motivated to sit on my fat arse all day playing with my playstation or playing with my cunt and although i would like to do either of these two things for a living I think some temping or barwork or something mite be a teeny bit more sensible.

I'm going to try (I really am) .. I am gonna slurp lotsa redbull and hit the streets looking for work - watch me go!

(this is all insane monday morning optimism, I will probably get as far as the nearest pub and then get ratted and throw up and that'll be that. BUT I'M TRYING!!! )