I am all alone in the house and loving it. 
I get very little free time lately. I have not written here barely at all, nor in my Mac Journal in aeons.
My husband (it sounds so wierd to say that, I still can't believe I am married) took the boys and himself to get their heads buzzed for summer. It's already HOT here. My...
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I get very little free time lately. I have not written here barely at all, nor in my Mac Journal in aeons.
My husband (it sounds so wierd to say that, I still can't believe I am married) took the boys and himself to get their heads buzzed for summer. It's already HOT here. My...
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I think I'm just going to throw all abandon to the wind, give up on all of my fears and just go for it.
I've been hanging on to notions that are dead to me.
Not letting anything trickle away.
Boxing myself in.
Letting geography agitate me.
Life is so short to be so scared every day.
It's been almost a year that I've been...
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I've been hanging on to notions that are dead to me.
Not letting anything trickle away.
Boxing myself in.
Letting geography agitate me.
Life is so short to be so scared every day.
It's been almost a year that I've been...
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ta2dmom:
Hey, when did you leave Fiji? And did you leave any pop tarts for the Fijians?
I hope you get the outcome you're looking for.
xoxo
I hope you get the outcome you're looking for.
xoxo
Oh no, they're changing up the format again! As if I am not confused enough with everything else in my lilfe, now this?!?!?! help!!!!
Today is my husbands birthday. He would not let me do a thing for him. Not dinner, not a movie, not a gift, not anything. A think this is so wierd, and I know he is going to throw it back...
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Today is my husbands birthday. He would not let me do a thing for him. Not dinner, not a movie, not a gift, not anything. A think this is so wierd, and I know he is going to throw it back...
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ta2dmom:
I don't know what to say. Just that I hope you can get some time to gather yourself and come back raring to go.
Good luck with all of this.
xoxo
Good luck with all of this.
xoxo
I'm doing a little better, but I think that I just don't understand or know or comprehend the concept of how to be married. Some people see it as security. I have felt nothing but insecurity, or anxiety, since we got married.
I feel like something terrible is going to happen. I feel the finality of things and like I can't live up to them...
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I feel like something terrible is going to happen. I feel the finality of things and like I can't live up to them...
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ta2dmom:
I wish I had some words of wisdom or some magic spell to make it all better. All I can offer are woefully inadequate words like hang in there and please be sure to talk to your Dr. about the way you're feeling. I worry about you and I hope you're doing okay.
xoxo
xoxo
I strongly dislike being married. In fact, I hate it. I'm freaking out about it, actually.
The feelings I had 18 months into my first marriage (get me OUT of here!!!!), I already started having just days into this one. It doesn't help that I married a total asshole. Marriage just made me realize what a total fucking asshole he actually is, and that with...
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The feelings I had 18 months into my first marriage (get me OUT of here!!!!), I already started having just days into this one. It doesn't help that I married a total asshole. Marriage just made me realize what a total fucking asshole he actually is, and that with...
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ta2dmom:
OMG eve, I don't even know what to say to you about this. All I can come up with is a woefully lame "I'm so sorry you're feeling like this." I hope you can get this all figured out soon. I wish there was something more I could offer you but I'm at a loss. Just stay strong and know that I'm here if you need to just vent.
xoxo
xoxo
Ha ha!
I'm married, I'm married, I'm married!!!
All went very well...
It was a gorgeous sunny day, my dress turned out awesome, my bouquet was beauteous, the boys looked splendid, the groom looked smashingly hot, the cake was exquisite (although the reddest red velvet cake I have ever seen!!!)
We said our vows on the beach and it was sunny and breezy and perfect....
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I'm married, I'm married, I'm married!!!
All went very well...
It was a gorgeous sunny day, my dress turned out awesome, my bouquet was beauteous, the boys looked splendid, the groom looked smashingly hot, the cake was exquisite (although the reddest red velvet cake I have ever seen!!!)
We said our vows on the beach and it was sunny and breezy and perfect....
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jenova:
congratulations!!! i hope to see pictures soon xx
moonagedazy:
I saw your post in the girls group and just wanted to say congrats. 
I'm going to update very very very soon. I promise. All kinds of stuff has happened.
Good things, mostly.
But right now I'm in a huge hurry.
Good things, mostly.
But right now I'm in a huge hurry.
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_pie_:
*hugs* cant wait to hear
kaleidoscopic:
glad you have good things to tell us soon!!!! 
hoping some of that goodness pertains to your personal happiness and general growth and peace and understandings in your life
big big big hugs!
hoping some of that goodness pertains to your personal happiness and general growth and peace and understandings in your life
big big big hugs!
I have officially moved to Fiji.
With a box of Hello Kitty pop tarts.
With a box of Hello Kitty pop tarts.
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hopey:
And, no offence, but your fiance sounds seriously insensitive.......about the step son thing. I hate when men are babies.
thelibra:
nah. i was testing something for my group annd decided to leave it there 
I need a vacation. Now. Not the sunny beach sipping margaritas mindless boring type. No, I need a city. A city to walk in, explore, breathe in city air and see concrete and glass and city sights, sound and smells. That is the vacation my soul needs.
It could use a little shopping too.
It could use a little shopping too.
kaleidoscopic:
hello darling
sorry i've been away so long...off being busy and sad and breakupy but now i'm feeling so much better than i was even when i thought i was happy before.
i know what you mean about the city...there's something about a good city that nourishes the soul sometimes...and other times i need a forest. i'm weird. i can't be happy with any one thing for any long stretch of time...does that sound crazy to you?
well i hope you find the city you need...i was glad to read that you've found contentment. that's a beautiful thing
hope you get some shopping too every gal needs a little shopping
big hugs!
sorry i've been away so long...off being busy and sad and breakupy but now i'm feeling so much better than i was even when i thought i was happy before.
i know what you mean about the city...there's something about a good city that nourishes the soul sometimes...and other times i need a forest. i'm weird. i can't be happy with any one thing for any long stretch of time...does that sound crazy to you?
well i hope you find the city you need...i was glad to read that you've found contentment. that's a beautiful thing
hope you get some shopping too
every gal needs a little shopping
big hugs!
Were you ever just happy and content... so much so, that it made you cry? Good tears?
That's where I am. Everything finally in place. At least for now.
All that pain and hard work and everything... it has all come to fruition.
That's where I am. Everything finally in place. At least for now.
All that pain and hard work and everything... it has all come to fruition.
There's nothing worse than boredom. I have no reason to be bored. It's work. I have so much to do that I am bored. Other than that, I couldn't be happier.
Wish I could put that into some sort of meaningful quote. But can't right now. Ah well...
Wish I could put that into some sort of meaningful quote. But can't right now. Ah well...
Being sort of a morning person... in a house full of sleep pigs, is not easy.
coffee, please...
coffee, please...
I hope that things are going well and that you are taking good care of yourself and finding happiness in your life.
Big huge hugs across cyberspace