Ugh. I'm in one of the most horrid moods today I wish people would fucking leave me alone.
Step-dad: "blah blah blah"
me: "grrrr"
step-dad:"oh yeah, isn't this great and blah blah blah?"
"me: "fucking grr leave me alone"
Why do I have to get up today!?
Stupid homework, stupid drawing names for christmas, stupid christmas in fact while I'm at it.
I don't want to be pretty anymore, I just want to be loved.
Isn't it awesome how I have way too many clothes and I can't even find something to wear today? Le grr.
Why the fuck is there no duck?
Step-dad: "blah blah blah"
me: "grrrr"
step-dad:"oh yeah, isn't this great and blah blah blah?"
"me: "fucking grr leave me alone"
Why do I have to get up today!?
Stupid homework, stupid drawing names for christmas, stupid christmas in fact while I'm at it.
I don't want to be pretty anymore, I just want to be loved.
Isn't it awesome how I have way too many clothes and I can't even find something to wear today? Le grr.
Why the fuck is there no duck?
Christmas is a bother, eh?
But alas, it's very hard to escape it today. I don't believe, not many do- it's so entirely hallmark now and one day I hope not to celebrate it. Why can't we buy presents for the ones we love spontaneously throughout the year instead of feeling forced and broke to buy mass amounts for our loved ones and sometimes, people we don't even care all that much for? Oh.. runon sentence. I'm so bad for those.
I had to work out a budget the other day.. in order for me to save 400$ in the next 10 weeks I need to put away 5$ every work day and then 15$ from every paycheque and then.. THEN i can spend 20$ on the ones i like and upwards of 40-60$ on the people I love. I wish I could just spend more on my loved ones and forget about those that I feel forced into buying presents for..
Keep your chin up, beautiful.
Tomorrow's another day lined with possibility.
♥t
ps; if i could i would make you a duck.