Friday Feb 28, 2003

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aarrrrggghhh. i have not had a good day. i will not go into the reasons for i wouldn't want to drag any one else into my own personal bullshit.
that's the thing w/ these online journals. i have so much to say, and so much to let out @ any given moment, but i never know how much of myself i can, or should, put out there. it's kinda like just putting my soul out there to hang in the balance. i don't know how safe that is. i have such a problem letting people in after so many years of getting fucking burned time and time again. i used to trust every one that came into my life until they gave me reson not to. now, i don't trust anyone until they prove to me that they are absolutley fucking worthy. do i have problems??? skull
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telesis:
Wow, my very first friend! *blushes... looks down at feet* Thanks a lot, eveL. I know how hard it is to stay possitive... one of my closest friends just bought me a gift certificate for a music shop here in town. She wrote in HUGE black letters on the back of the certificate. "DON'T BUY ANYTHING SAD" Christ, I didn't realize I was bumming people out and stuff? I was embarrassed to hand the card over the counter! So, now I'll only listen to cold and sterile electronica when she's around. Try and be sad to Squarepusher! Ha.
a35mmlife:
i use my journal to get shit out i wouldnt talk about normally. others write one liners... if it needs to spill it will spill...

i hope you work past the trust issues... that sounds lonely. smile

have a great weekend

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