seems like something is in the air lately. every where i look i see every one i know struggeling w/ something. life is less than simple these days, & it seems like no one is having an easy time holding on to even a little bit of happiness. for me it comes & goes, but over all i'm finding it difficult to take pleasure in...
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sorry for the absence. i had to take a time out from SG to handle the situations going on in the rest of my life. but i'm back, and (hopefully) back to normal. thank you to everyone who has been so concerned & supportive. you guys fucking rock! 
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telesis:
Whatever it takes eveL! As long as your back. With all those little smiling/kissing/kind faces you have posted up there, your next journal better be a positive one! We want to see you smile, and were holding it to ya!
cheech:
Biiiig huuuug to you...and some "tubby tustud"! (I'm sorry, that's a Teletubbies reference, I'm a moron. For the record, I like Bowie more than Teletubbies...)
it occured to me that, after last weeks distressed entery, i should probably follow up on what i wrote to satisfy who ever might be curious about the out come, & clear the air for the other person involved.
last friday night everything finally exploded, & all the things i knew i felt were being kept from me were brought to light. in one respect,...
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last friday night everything finally exploded, & all the things i knew i felt were being kept from me were brought to light. in one respect,...
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butterfly2:
PS and that pic is gorgeous!!!!!
telesis:
Evel, I haven't seen you on in a couple of days. I hope things are cool?
fuck, today was the kind of day that has you feeling like you are in a coma by the time it ends...i don't remember when i've been so grateful and releived to be just sitting here @ my computer.
here's how the day went: wake up, running late, ran out of pomade for my hair, leave the house w/ makeup 1/2 finished. went to lunch...
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here's how the day went: wake up, running late, ran out of pomade for my hair, leave the house w/ makeup 1/2 finished. went to lunch...
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telesis:
Your pic looks great! And you still look eveL! In a sort of cute ass way. I hope I can find the time this weekend to update my profile pic. I really like to see a variety on SG. I wish it was mandatory to change the pics every moth or so.
Your day sounded so incredibly shitty, I'm not even going to post a comment! Desperately, needs to be forgotten! I hope your weekend turns out better!
Your day sounded so incredibly shitty, I'm not even going to post a comment! Desperately, needs to be forgotten! I hope your weekend turns out better!
telesis:
Fuckin' double posts! AAAAHHHH! EEEERRRR! FUCK!
[Edited on Mar 12, 2003]
[Edited on Mar 12, 2003]
to those who are interested, i have a new email address.
too many raven this, & raven thats popping up all over the place.
too many raven this, & raven thats popping up all over the place.
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cobalt:
Did your old email address get spammed to death?
Every day I'm buried in Viagra offers, Horse Sex, Tax Relief, and gizmos that make popcorn...ugh! I may have to change mine too...
Every day I'm buried in Viagra offers, Horse Sex, Tax Relief, and gizmos that make popcorn...ugh! I may have to change mine too...
indie:
You like Ocean 11 the band??? I haven't/heard of anyone liking that band?
today i was listening to the radio while in my car, and i was reminded of what a great fucking band Bon Jovi was back in the day.
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demigauge:
bah..to much hair and spandex for me ..i need the raw sexuality of NIN
telesis:
Poison was better?
What the Fuck? Jovi was at least real.
Non of that do-op-bob-pop-shit!?!
Can't believe I'm even posting on such a topic? Do I even really care? (thinks to self and laughs out loud)
Jovi vs. Poison debate. Goes hand and hand with a slight hang over and a sunday morning coffee!
What the Fuck? Jovi was at least real.
Non of that do-op-bob-pop-shit!?!
Can't believe I'm even posting on such a topic? Do I even really care? (thinks to self and laughs out loud)
Jovi vs. Poison debate. Goes hand and hand with a slight hang over and a sunday morning coffee!
when i stumbeled upon this site in search of porn, i had no idea that it would change from being just a website into something more, something that would actually effect me and my every day life.
the comfort i get from sg is a very strange thing to try and explain. people i don't know and have never met start to feel like friends,...
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the comfort i get from sg is a very strange thing to try and explain. people i don't know and have never met start to feel like friends,...
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unclefalker:
glad we could try to help.
demigauge:
merf*huge huggles8 i always like reading what you ahve to say...and yes itis odd how complete strangers you ahve never met become good friends...*hugs*..sleep tight monkey
in my haste to get my rent $ dropped off on time, i didn't realize my vague description of my problem was going to leave people hanging. how self absorbed am i ?
back to my bullshit.. i'm having trust issues, actually, just one huge trust issue w/ some one i prayed i'd never have this kind of bullshit w/. it's been a off again,...
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back to my bullshit.. i'm having trust issues, actually, just one huge trust issue w/ some one i prayed i'd never have this kind of bullshit w/. it's been a off again,...
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unclefalker:
First of all , ignore temptess! she is jaded.................
Second, take more than just a step back from the situation, your going to need some space to figure this one out . i'm not going to tell you that your right or wrong but i will say "try to be the one who calls the shots in the relationship". If he wants to see other people ,then let him , but be strong as to say, that its over. Don't let him tie you arond his finger.
If this guy is in fact seeing another person, then you don't need him. Life can be very simple if you take the anishitive to make it simple. by you getting depressed over the problem it doesn't solve anything.
Thats why I said to take more than just a step back.
One thing is for sure people that enter relationships w/ a negitive outlook or (keep yourself at a safe distance)additude ,you are going to have this problems. I have seen it to many times before. I ,myself am guilty of this.
If your not happy ,do something about it. Don't sit there and let him tear you apart while he's trying to firure out if he wants to be with you or not .Do what it takes to make yourself happy, by all means necessary, but with that said " STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF".
I hope that I helped out in some way or another,if not, I'm sorry...........................
ryan
Second, take more than just a step back from the situation, your going to need some space to figure this one out . i'm not going to tell you that your right or wrong but i will say "try to be the one who calls the shots in the relationship". If he wants to see other people ,then let him , but be strong as to say, that its over. Don't let him tie you arond his finger.
If this guy is in fact seeing another person, then you don't need him. Life can be very simple if you take the anishitive to make it simple. by you getting depressed over the problem it doesn't solve anything.
Thats why I said to take more than just a step back.
One thing is for sure people that enter relationships w/ a negitive outlook or (keep yourself at a safe distance)additude ,you are going to have this problems. I have seen it to many times before. I ,myself am guilty of this.
If your not happy ,do something about it. Don't sit there and let him tear you apart while he's trying to firure out if he wants to be with you or not .Do what it takes to make yourself happy, by all means necessary, but with that said " STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF".
I hope that I helped out in some way or another,if not, I'm sorry...........................
ryan
unclefalker:
Right on telesis.........
he's got the right idea
he's got the right idea
ok i'm in a hurry cause i have to run out and get a few bullshit errands done (drop my rent off blah, blah, blah...), but i wanted to get this down first.
i am going through this huge internal struggle thing over something that's more or less everything to me. it's been growing inside of me for too long, and now there's almost never...
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i am going through this huge internal struggle thing over something that's more or less everything to me. it's been growing inside of me for too long, and now there's almost never...
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doctorhellno:
sorrry me no spellin so good, engish isn' hard
linz:
yay! hugs and lovin..i can get used to that!
this may seem like a silly little thing to every one but me, but it has made my whole damn day. i've been in search of this one certian cd since high school, and couldn't find it any where from rare vinyl record shops, to all the mp3/music sites i know , until i posted a thread about my search here on the music board....
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unclefalker:
Whats up mama , just swinging by the sight .Thats cool you got that cd. What is it ? I went down to ameba records in holywood and got some old queens of the stone age , a band called shinner,old sevendust and a bunch more . Anyways hope to see some pics of you playing with fire.
cheech:
Like evrybody else, I'm dying to know what CD it was...
aarrrrggghhh. i have not had a good day. i will not go into the reasons for i wouldn't want to drag any one else into my own personal bullshit.
that's the thing w/ these online journals. i have so much to say, and so much to let out @ any given moment, but i never know how much of myself i can, or should, put...
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that's the thing w/ these online journals. i have so much to say, and so much to let out @ any given moment, but i never know how much of myself i can, or should, put...
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telesis:
Wow, my very first friend! *blushes... looks down at feet* Thanks a lot, eveL. I know how hard it is to stay possitive... one of my closest friends just bought me a gift certificate for a music shop here in town. She wrote in HUGE black letters on the back of the certificate. "DON'T BUY ANYTHING SAD" Christ, I didn't realize I was bumming people out and stuff? I was embarrassed to hand the card over the counter! So, now I'll only listen to cold and sterile electronica when she's around. Try and be sad to Squarepusher! Ha.
a35mmlife:
i use my journal to get shit out i wouldnt talk about normally. others write one liners... if it needs to spill it will spill...
i hope you work past the trust issues... that sounds lonely.
have a great weekend
i hope you work past the trust issues... that sounds lonely.
have a great weekend
the big fat storm i was promised has failed to arrive, & it's got me in a pissy mood. i've been sitting here in front of my open window, smoking too many cigarettes, & waiting for the sound of the rain. instead, all i can hear is my drunk ass neighbors woo-hooing & rocking the fuck out to ac/dc's 'back in black'. people like these...
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lsdisturbed:
awwwwwwwww poor baby i got lovin for ya,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, just ask and kathy fucked reno !!!!!
hahhaahahahaha
poor frank
yes dear, i'm back !
i love you
hahhaahahahaha
poor frank
yes dear, i'm back !
i love you
demigauge:
really i keep your ass out of jail..aww..thank hun *hugs*
i went and saw loobie again last friday in detroit with his folk implosion!...the show was absolutely amazing...if you haven't bought the new folk implosion record you are REALLY missing out...it's SHITTY! you'll have to excuse me, i've been replacing the words 'awesome' and 'cool' with the word 'SHITTY' lately. anyways, i think it's something you could use to get out of the rut you're in...there's something about loobie's musical dimeanor than can really help put things into perspective...
-obstacles (sp)-
do you have like a PO box or something? i wanna send you those loobiecore shows i recorded lady! or, if not a physical address, let's figure out how i can get you the MP3's?