I can't sleep....
I would make a cute Nun I think- would just have to stay away from the wine
I am wide awake at 4:10 Am and have been for the past two hours- not sexy. Strange nightmare of being the head of all of the branches of the military and having to segregate them so I could keep an eye on them. We are on a deserted island with lush greenery you see, and it is O dark at night! I apparently only have about a dozen or so soldiers( Male and Female you pervs)
from each branch with several captains out of each group designated to keep watch. I don't know why I woke in a complete sweat, with dry eyes(possible dehydration) and now heartburn
but I know I am damn sure not at all thrilled about Military Vampires
. That's right - they were turning into Vampires! How am I going to kill them and who can I trust to NOT turn into a vamp??? Then there were guns( Dislike) and glass buildings
and I woke up thinking- "Um they were more like Zombies, not Vampires!" That may have been residual from Sunday after work watching Iron man 1 and 2 Fucked up with my Lil brother!!! Seeing the faces of people familiar to me being left behind with the knowing our paths would never cross again did upset me, that's more symbolic of an esoteric nature ......If I were to write a song it would have been this one.
I hadn't realized I had this until recent.. .
I miss him madly. I long to be near him, hear his voice, his laugh, his touch- he is such a character, to sit in silence and say nothing while our souls have a conversation all its own, to make love and play, to read to one another and see what we can inspire in each other, to marvel in his talents; the ones he has forsaken to be a practical adult, the ones that are a part of him he can never silence forever- the talents that I so admire in all that posses them. I'd love that he make time, get on a plane to me for once so we can spend a few days with no cares in the world, No obligations, no hiding. I really want to show him Philly; a quaint bed and breakfast modernized with Wifi and a nice bath of course, The Art and Science museums, the history and culture. The Food...just so much I want and have always wanted to experience and share with him. He's like me but opposite LOL. He's the only one that gets it..me...I don't know....He's the one that I can be all of Me with- not just the parts, all of me....I'd love to go to him..right now I just want to be selfish with him...
That made me cry a little- "Epic Dislike!"
Daily Candy Philadelphia Aerial Yoga=Giggitty!] I think I had an orgasm when I saw that>Yoga in the air Ahhh Hellloooooo Lovaaaa
MMMMMMMmmmmmmmm Charlie Mars:
To play the muse, inspire such creative passions as to silence the mind whilst the heart and soul of a man takes flight; higher and higher the priceless drug, Is this Euphoria, is this ecstasy that drowns us in unbriddled frenzy, I ask what does the muse possess that can bring nations to unrest?!
I'm going to pop my trusty charcoal pills for my infantile digestive system that gets upset even when I don't really eat, drink some water to hydrate and smoke some more cigarettes that I have been curiously been smoking far too many of in recent weeks- almost like watching a movie - I dislike but for oddly with the exception of the other day when it almost repelled me;I feel like someone else is smoking these bitches vicariously through me. Thank God today is an evening shift so I can get some sleep I hope -the suns coming 
