Yesterday on a cocktail of antibiotics and mucinex-D, I watched the history Channel. In fact while I am nearing the end of this bacterial virus spawned from being intoxicated about 4 weeks ago? In South Florida and not realizing that the pita I was eating turned bad and that penicilan may very well come from mold-but I would do really good not to ingest it! I digress.....
When I was conscious I watched a series on the History channel about Presidential transports through the different administrations. Then I watched back to back series on the Presidents of the United States. I was upset it ended at Harrison I think. I really wanted to see Lincoln. I'm not even joking - I just reminded myself to check the listings online to see when the next installment will air-yes today is the last antibiotic and I am currently on it- i will make a poin
t! Ohhhh did you know Van Buren died 30 days into his term? He also had the longest innaugural speech in US history. It was two hours long and he read it outside in March, you see he was tired of people accusing him of being stupid. In reality he was very well educated even being schooled in medicine!!!! Maybe a shorter speech indoors or atleast wearing a hat and coat( neither did he wear) would have helped his cause. He caught a cold that then turned into pneumonia and then died! Wonder if people thought differently of him then? 
If only he didn't care what people thought, he may have lived out his term possibly two and showed people differently!
Needless to say I was in Presidential overload. The story on presidential travel especially left my brain in overload, I mean most information about Airforce 1 is speculated. It is able to divert heat seeking missiles by expelling higher temperatures to the rear of the craft > away from it! That is bad ass!!! Other than the aesthetics: luxury, hightech computers,phones, fax machines, Mac'd out kitchen able to feed a few thousand people....little else is really known. The helicopters same thing. The vehicles however had much more detail like bullet proof -everything pretty much. When President Regan was shot, it was the car that actually almost killed him. The bullet hit the car>ricochetted off and into his chest!!! I dont think I ever knew that!!! The footage of President Kennedy in the Bubble Top in Dallas is always so difficult to watch. To see that and then the footage of his casket being loaded into the main part of the aircraft amongst people fighting that it wouldnt fit and what to do he cant be loaded in the gully...it has to fit. To see his casket there and Johnson being sworn in during midflight with Jackie standing there in her blood stained dress..... The information was poignant and still heavily ingrained in my thoughts.
I woke to a NY Times alert on my phone that the Polish President Kaczynski and 95 others perished in a plane crash in Russia en route to a ceremony to commorate the 70th anniversary of 22,000 polish officers murdered by the Russian Secret Police. I could scarcely believe it. I thought "could this happen to Air force 1 and what the hell would we do?" Then I thought-do other world leaders not have the same protection at their disposal and why? These are World leaders.... I thought what a horrific thing to have to remember-22,000 officers being murdered. Russia has never offered a formal apology, Family members were on this flight for this event. The president, his wife, staff etc....I read where a country men referred to this as a curse and I can understand that perception. Polish President dies in plane crash
Mostly my heart goes out to a country and to people that lost there loved ones. It makes me question divinty and fate. It makes me realize how intricate things are. I am great for declaring" it is as it should be", but when does that fail to be true? The pilot ultimately has the power to decide what action he will take, this pilot was warned of the fog and directed by Russian officials to divert landing. Ultimately he chose to continue the landing. He had a choice and the wrong one cost nearly a hundred lives. It's a choice that cannot be undone. On a more spiritual level I could argue that perhaps these particular souls; a President, his wife, family members of those being remembered, staff-perhaps these people on a soul level decided to come together at this time in this manner to make sure the travesty committed some 70 years ago would not go forgotten. Until today I'd never even heard of the incident.
My head is teething with all of this information and a perceived heightened sense of things. Sometimes it is so much easier for me to believe and have faith in the divine order of things. Today I just question what if he would have just listened? Would they have crashed elsewhere? or Would everyone be safe right now, unaware at how close they came to eminate danger, unaware they almost lost their lives. How many times in our own lives did we listen, did we hear that voice, the one we couldn't quantify the one inside and we listened and we were right? How wonderful to say I dont know how I knew but I did! How many times did we fail to hear that voice and then not listen to the warnings of others only to realize Damn- I should have listened! How many times did that voice, that knowing of something, come and we ignored it and when will it cost us everything not to have listened?
All that is certain about humanity is; we are all flesh and blood, we all have freedom of choice and we will all meet in the underworld ( Sorry saw Clash of the Titans in 3D...fucking awe inspiring!!!) back to the last thought....who are we not to live our most passionate and fulifilled lives? Who are we to not take risks, I mean you fail you try again, what's the worst that can happen? Death? It is our only promise! So again I am reinforced with the knowledge that I will risk everything to be my best self and I will fight with everything I have and borrow more faith from the heavens if need be, to live the life I dream of. when my day comes I want to grin to the gates and say "Hell Yeah I did it" and as I look down at those that survive me, I want them not to grieve my life - miss me yes, grieve no...I want them to play Frank Sinatra "That bitch did it her Wayyyyyy!!!" Well the LIl Wayne remix anyway
I want people to know that while I was here....I Lived. I lived in faith. I lived with passion and beyond happiness. I lived Fully and with purpose. I LIVED!!!!
When I was conscious I watched a series on the History channel about Presidential transports through the different administrations. Then I watched back to back series on the Presidents of the United States. I was upset it ended at Harrison I think. I really wanted to see Lincoln. I'm not even joking - I just reminded myself to check the listings online to see when the next installment will air-yes today is the last antibiotic and I am currently on it- i will make a poin
t! Ohhhh did you know Van Buren died 30 days into his term? He also had the longest innaugural speech in US history. It was two hours long and he read it outside in March, you see he was tired of people accusing him of being stupid. In reality he was very well educated even being schooled in medicine!!!! Maybe a shorter speech indoors or atleast wearing a hat and coat( neither did he wear) would have helped his cause. He caught a cold that then turned into pneumonia and then died! Wonder if people thought differently of him then? If only he didn't care what people thought, he may have lived out his term possibly two and showed people differently!
Needless to say I was in Presidential overload. The story on presidential travel especially left my brain in overload, I mean most information about Airforce 1 is speculated. It is able to divert heat seeking missiles by expelling higher temperatures to the rear of the craft > away from it! That is bad ass!!! Other than the aesthetics: luxury, hightech computers,phones, fax machines, Mac'd out kitchen able to feed a few thousand people....little else is really known. The helicopters same thing. The vehicles however had much more detail like bullet proof -everything pretty much. When President Regan was shot, it was the car that actually almost killed him. The bullet hit the car>ricochetted off and into his chest!!! I dont think I ever knew that!!! The footage of President Kennedy in the Bubble Top in Dallas is always so difficult to watch. To see that and then the footage of his casket being loaded into the main part of the aircraft amongst people fighting that it wouldnt fit and what to do he cant be loaded in the gully...it has to fit. To see his casket there and Johnson being sworn in during midflight with Jackie standing there in her blood stained dress..... The information was poignant and still heavily ingrained in my thoughts.
I woke to a NY Times alert on my phone that the Polish President Kaczynski and 95 others perished in a plane crash in Russia en route to a ceremony to commorate the 70th anniversary of 22,000 polish officers murdered by the Russian Secret Police. I could scarcely believe it. I thought "could this happen to Air force 1 and what the hell would we do?" Then I thought-do other world leaders not have the same protection at their disposal and why? These are World leaders.... I thought what a horrific thing to have to remember-22,000 officers being murdered. Russia has never offered a formal apology, Family members were on this flight for this event. The president, his wife, staff etc....I read where a country men referred to this as a curse and I can understand that perception. Polish President dies in plane crash
Mostly my heart goes out to a country and to people that lost there loved ones. It makes me question divinty and fate. It makes me realize how intricate things are. I am great for declaring" it is as it should be", but when does that fail to be true? The pilot ultimately has the power to decide what action he will take, this pilot was warned of the fog and directed by Russian officials to divert landing. Ultimately he chose to continue the landing. He had a choice and the wrong one cost nearly a hundred lives. It's a choice that cannot be undone. On a more spiritual level I could argue that perhaps these particular souls; a President, his wife, family members of those being remembered, staff-perhaps these people on a soul level decided to come together at this time in this manner to make sure the travesty committed some 70 years ago would not go forgotten. Until today I'd never even heard of the incident.
My head is teething with all of this information and a perceived heightened sense of things. Sometimes it is so much easier for me to believe and have faith in the divine order of things. Today I just question what if he would have just listened? Would they have crashed elsewhere? or Would everyone be safe right now, unaware at how close they came to eminate danger, unaware they almost lost their lives. How many times in our own lives did we listen, did we hear that voice, the one we couldn't quantify the one inside and we listened and we were right? How wonderful to say I dont know how I knew but I did! How many times did we fail to hear that voice and then not listen to the warnings of others only to realize Damn- I should have listened! How many times did that voice, that knowing of something, come and we ignored it and when will it cost us everything not to have listened?
All that is certain about humanity is; we are all flesh and blood, we all have freedom of choice and we will all meet in the underworld ( Sorry saw Clash of the Titans in 3D...fucking awe inspiring!!!) back to the last thought....who are we not to live our most passionate and fulifilled lives? Who are we to not take risks, I mean you fail you try again, what's the worst that can happen? Death? It is our only promise! So again I am reinforced with the knowledge that I will risk everything to be my best self and I will fight with everything I have and borrow more faith from the heavens if need be, to live the life I dream of. when my day comes I want to grin to the gates and say "Hell Yeah I did it" and as I look down at those that survive me, I want them not to grieve my life - miss me yes, grieve no...I want them to play Frank Sinatra "That bitch did it her Wayyyyyy!!!" Well the LIl Wayne remix anyway
I want people to know that while I was here....I Lived. I lived in faith. I lived with passion and beyond happiness. I lived Fully and with purpose. I LIVED!!!!VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
I am bored of the work that I'm doing, I'm getting better at it though. Or at least I'm going to make a better effort of it.
I relized I need to!