evangelin

Back from Vegas...I could not have anticipated how fruitful that trip was going to be. All that despite having my luggage lost and damaged. Which reminds me i have some demands to make on that. I made amazing contacts. Got info on some things I was considering. Spent quality time with some people I adore, one being the boy and I love falling asleep and waking up in his arms. With that, yesterdays conversation was me trying initiate the conversation-that we need to have a conversation about us and what we're doing. he played stupid, Itripped over my tongue>have you ever heard a person grin through the phone? I believe he was amused at my expense! Fucker

HE left it at before the end of the three day weekend, let's discuss us. I left it at -when your ready to talk about it-call. I'm freaking mortified but I need clarity. He's my best friend and my love and we can't continue with stealing intimate moments if we're not working toward a relationship. It's just not fair to either of us, especially me...and then there is his current situation Just not fair to anyone!

I have gotten rid of almost everything, packed what was necessary and am held up in limbo with my friend Mary. Even my laptop was on the crazy for the past 5 weeks? Finally she is like new> but for the fact I lost all of my documents and settings and pictures and music....starting fresh and new seems to be the theme of my life right now.

I'm Ok with that mostly I have a great road ahead of me and I have worked hard to get here. With that, I deal with the little curve balls that are currently aimed at me...and know it's all for my greater good. California here I come