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I tried to avoid this evening I knew what would happen-Doesn't matter though, if I wasn't there I would have hurt Erin and being there-too much alcohol ...Me and K came toe to toe at the end of the night. I swear I would have just shut the fuck up and dumbed it down not to have to look at Erin crying begging me to just stay with them. She's such a good person, she's getting married she didn't deserve that.
My eyes hurt from crying so much my mom was the only person I could even begin to share with, only I was even more depressed not being able to be with her, not just cause it was mothers day, but because I miss being able to spend time with her and take care of her and spoil her and I know she misses me the same. So I fought back the tears and she tried to make me feel better..... I tried to make her think she did....
I miss Casey. I miss knowing someone knows me, I miss someone being strong for me when I can't. But there isn't anyone, so I hurt in private and won't let anyone see and I stay strong because I have no choice.
I would take every second of it back - I just see the dominoes fallling and it's not fair. My heart just never seems to be able to stay whole,, it's always broken. Being right was not worth it....
I tried to avoid this evening I knew what would happen-Doesn't matter though, if I wasn't there I would have hurt Erin and being there-too much alcohol ...Me and K came toe to toe at the end of the night. I swear I would have just shut the fuck up and dumbed it down not to have to look at Erin crying begging me to just stay with them. She's such a good person, she's getting married she didn't deserve that.
My eyes hurt from crying so much my mom was the only person I could even begin to share with, only I was even more depressed not being able to be with her, not just cause it was mothers day, but because I miss being able to spend time with her and take care of her and spoil her and I know she misses me the same. So I fought back the tears and she tried to make me feel better..... I tried to make her think she did....
I miss Casey. I miss knowing someone knows me, I miss someone being strong for me when I can't. But there isn't anyone, so I hurt in private and won't let anyone see and I stay strong because I have no choice.
I would take every second of it back - I just see the dominoes fallling and it's not fair. My heart just never seems to be able to stay whole,, it's always broken. Being right was not worth it....
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I suppose the genius of this place is that they go a little deeper. There is NO mention of the whole fucking twelve step process. It's not merely a support and detox facility but they get to the root of things and also realize that i am indeed a real prince(ss). I have a water view and 900 thread count sheets
I know it's going to suck. But I am hoping the end result will be with it. You'd be laughing your arse off, dear, they completely dismiss my prima donna behavior. No one here is afraid of me. They've seen disease and mental illness and addicts .... and they just tune it all out. My tantrums are completely wasted. I have an aid for physical things..... so I pretty much have run of the grounds, and someone there if I have a seizure or fall.
We will see what happens. I don't feel like they're waiting for my demise at this point, but perhaps there is something. (what though?)
how's the spelling today ?