evangelin

I walked by a pink house on a corner of a street near the lake. It's a street I never take or rarely......I did today and I was fine thinking of how Yoga was good but I just couldn't get myself present. Then as I was passing the house-I had the clearest feeling of everythng I've lost. In seconds I was back in Philly with Joe. We were in the car taking a ride on a beautiful summers day.....John and Janet were having a barbeque. It was just the Doyeah....we used to call her. ........ In that moment everything good about those years overwhelmed me. It took a second for all the good to wash over me like the sun, then the clouds moved in and it was a remarkable knowing of Loss. Like someone had to make sure I was clear on what emptiness should feel like.

Crystal clear. I don't think I want to go down that street pass that house again...........