I feel great!!! 
So much stronger than I have felt in such a long time. I have been listening to my meditation cd's courtesy of the centerpointe Holysinc program. So worth the time and money invested. Qi gong studies are coming along nicely although I have ascertained that several sessions a day are necessary for me to fully grasp and be prepared for certification end of the month. I am stoked on the level four seminar the following day, with emphasis on some tantric practices. 
Tribal bellydance however is alittle disappointing
I started the class two classes late and then somewhere inbetween managed to miss about 4 classes. The end of the beginner session is this month. So I have doubled down to doing the Monday and Tuesday night classes in the hopes of catching up and moving onto the intermediate which is more improvisational based on the basic form. I believe however that I will simply have to suck it up and redo the beginner level. There are far too many movements that I'm just not comfortable with. I feel like a fucking prude in there, made worse by the fact that I have noted my posture in the movements is causing stress to my lower back! I get the same stress when I don't do Yoga for a period of time so I up'd my classes to four a week. So Tribal hurts my lower back, but is sexy as fuck...so -no pain, no gain i say. Yoga makes my back feel much better, but some of the balancing poses hurt my right ankle and Qi Gong posture also strains my right ankle. I hurt that months ago running. There were several incidents of my foot catching sideways like a bloody moran. It hasn't been the same since.
All in all -I think I need a good chiropractor to slap me back into alignment. That or a really nice long screw. I bet I make it to a chiropractor first though
it's been such a long time and I really do long for someone that can match or surpass my intensity and passion. But he would have to be one hell of a guy to even get me interested!!! c'est la vie-it's well worth the wait.
End of next month I have decided to take the Karrass effective negotiating two day course. Not cheap- but I have been dying to do it for over a year. I wish that HR would have offered it up. I am such a nerd I'll go to any seminar that promises to teach me something useful that I don't already know. Like IAsponge-suck up the knowledge*****It is POWER. This in my mind is a must if I plan on going back into the fashion industry in any level, which I do fully intend to do. I really don't know what capacity, I am fairly certain it won't be buying. Been there, done that, bored with it.....need something new and exciting that offers travel. Something I can sink my teeth into that won't disappoint me for awhile! September I will put my resume out and let the vultures flock. My poor friends are concerned that the market is just so bad......./ FUCK THAT
I know my worth and my instincts are telling me to wait and do the things I otherwise wouldn't be able to. Once I put myself out there I won't be available long. I did discuss being bicoastal as I do Miss the north. Not Jersey although all of my family is there. New York. Friends,lifestyle, the men, the food.....the high charged pace! Having all that I want within reach...did I say the men???? That's why i've been without sex for so long-I wouldn't have this problem if I were back. But I do enjoy many aspects of Florida. I needed to be here for awhile. California-possibility as well. I would love to go out to LA and fall in love with it and professionally be involved in both cities. I would have more access to my loved ones home and I'm sure I could lay over in Orlando long enough to see my friends here from time to time....and then to LA. But I haven't been yet and I do need to get on that before I put my resume out there. I need to be sure that I would WANT to be there.
My decisions now are reflective of the future I want to have. New York for me is NOT the place I would find that guy and marry and build a family with. It satisfies the hunger in me to push the edge and dominate. It does not offer me peace or balance in any way shape or form. It never did, and that's why I decided a long time ago, it was in my best interest to not call it home.Florida brings me much stability. I love the relationships I have built here. It's like my family away from home. My mom loves them too. But -love has been grossly elusive here and my thirst for pushing the envelop and having all that I desire,is simply nonexistant here. I'm balanced spiritually but other than that ...ticking time bomb
hopefully LA fills that void....and How I miss the beach at my door step.I would love it most if I could envision building a family there and still stay balanced. If not there than what I want has to exist somewhere.
I do so look forward to finding that place....and embracing it fully. Part of the fun in life is the journey..........so I've learned, when I step outside of my ego and my mind......Be like the tortoise. Slow and steady, take the scenic route and enjoy it. We will all end up at the same place eventually.Dust in the wind, where we come from....why rush it? Just enjoy it!!!!
PS I love Gavin Rossdale. great performance at hard Rock Live a few months back and when I met him at velvet lounge later that night....super down to earth and bloody hot as hell. 
HOT I SAY!!! and I really heart this song!
So much stronger than I have felt in such a long time. I have been listening to my meditation cd's courtesy of the centerpointe Holysinc program. So worth the time and money invested. Qi gong studies are coming along nicely although I have ascertained that several sessions a day are necessary for me to fully grasp and be prepared for certification end of the month. I am stoked on the level four seminar the following day, with emphasis on some tantric practices. Tribal bellydance however is alittle disappointing
I started the class two classes late and then somewhere inbetween managed to miss about 4 classes. The end of the beginner session is this month. So I have doubled down to doing the Monday and Tuesday night classes in the hopes of catching up and moving onto the intermediate which is more improvisational based on the basic form. I believe however that I will simply have to suck it up and redo the beginner level. There are far too many movements that I'm just not comfortable with. I feel like a fucking prude in there, made worse by the fact that I have noted my posture in the movements is causing stress to my lower back! I get the same stress when I don't do Yoga for a period of time so I up'd my classes to four a week. So Tribal hurts my lower back, but is sexy as fuck...so -no pain, no gain i say. Yoga makes my back feel much better, but some of the balancing poses hurt my right ankle and Qi Gong posture also strains my right ankle. I hurt that months ago running. There were several incidents of my foot catching sideways like a bloody moran. It hasn't been the same since.All in all -I think I need a good chiropractor to slap me back into alignment. That or a really nice long screw. I bet I make it to a chiropractor first though
it's been such a long time and I really do long for someone that can match or surpass my intensity and passion. But he would have to be one hell of a guy to even get me interested!!! c'est la vie-it's well worth the wait. End of next month I have decided to take the Karrass effective negotiating two day course. Not cheap- but I have been dying to do it for over a year. I wish that HR would have offered it up. I am such a nerd I'll go to any seminar that promises to teach me something useful that I don't already know. Like IAsponge-suck up the knowledge*****It is POWER. This in my mind is a must if I plan on going back into the fashion industry in any level, which I do fully intend to do. I really don't know what capacity, I am fairly certain it won't be buying. Been there, done that, bored with it.....need something new and exciting that offers travel. Something I can sink my teeth into that won't disappoint me for awhile! September I will put my resume out and let the vultures flock. My poor friends are concerned that the market is just so bad......./ FUCK THAT
I know my worth and my instincts are telling me to wait and do the things I otherwise wouldn't be able to. Once I put myself out there I won't be available long. I did discuss being bicoastal as I do Miss the north. Not Jersey although all of my family is there. New York. Friends,lifestyle, the men, the food.....the high charged pace! Having all that I want within reach...did I say the men???? That's why i've been without sex for so long-I wouldn't have this problem if I were back. But I do enjoy many aspects of Florida. I needed to be here for awhile. California-possibility as well. I would love to go out to LA and fall in love with it and professionally be involved in both cities. I would have more access to my loved ones home and I'm sure I could lay over in Orlando long enough to see my friends here from time to time....and then to LA. But I haven't been yet and I do need to get on that before I put my resume out there. I need to be sure that I would WANT to be there. My decisions now are reflective of the future I want to have. New York for me is NOT the place I would find that guy and marry and build a family with. It satisfies the hunger in me to push the edge and dominate. It does not offer me peace or balance in any way shape or form. It never did, and that's why I decided a long time ago, it was in my best interest to not call it home.Florida brings me much stability. I love the relationships I have built here. It's like my family away from home. My mom loves them too. But -love has been grossly elusive here and my thirst for pushing the envelop and having all that I desire,is simply nonexistant here. I'm balanced spiritually but other than that ...ticking time bomb
hopefully LA fills that void....and How I miss the beach at my door step.I would love it most if I could envision building a family there and still stay balanced. If not there than what I want has to exist somewhere.I do so look forward to finding that place....and embracing it fully. Part of the fun in life is the journey..........so I've learned, when I step outside of my ego and my mind......Be like the tortoise. Slow and steady, take the scenic route and enjoy it. We will all end up at the same place eventually.Dust in the wind, where we come from....why rush it? Just enjoy it!!!!
PS I love Gavin Rossdale. great performance at hard Rock Live a few months back and when I met him at velvet lounge later that night....super down to earth and bloody hot as hell.
HOT I SAY!!! and I really heart this song!