The sun is shining, I've slept well and I'm feeling pretty horny from all the stories in the Sexaholics group that I just joined... 
What a way to start my saturday! 
A shame I've got a few things to sort out this weekend I would love to be able to ignore.
I've got no money left on my bankaccount, which is my own fault because I was too late with sending in some forms for social security. I'm such a dumbass some times! Well, maybe you'd better call it depressed and ignorant, but it's still plane stupid! Someone should kick my ass! Oh wait, I should do that myself....
Got to ask my parents now to help out with a loan. I should also clean-up my room. It's a big mess. Really, it's silly how hard it can be to just look after myself sometimes. Someone please beat some sense into me! But again, that's something I need to do myself..... The question remains HOW?! One would think that after a year of therapy I would be able to look after myself, but the opposite seems the case. I used to be so organized and tidy a few years back.... 
The other thing is that next week is my last week in therapy and I need to think about what I want to do with it, how I want to leave, what I want to say etc. I've tried not to think about it the last couple of weeks because it scares me, but ofcourse that doesn't make things go away.... Thinking about it makes me sad because I'll really miss some of the people I got to know in the last months, I'm scared to have to do things on my own again, afraid I'm not strong enough to beat depressive thoughts and so on... I still don't really know what to do after I'm gone. I think I still want to do some kind of therapy, but am not sure what. In september I want to finish my study, but untill then I will have to try to find a job which kind of stresses me out.
Ok, enough of that. I'm going out, sit down in the sun, and think about how I want to do things next week and when I'm done I'll start cleaning my room!
What a way to start my saturday! A shame I've got a few things to sort out this weekend I would love to be able to ignore.
I've got no money left on my bankaccount, which is my own fault because I was too late with sending in some forms for social security. I'm such a dumbass some times! Well, maybe you'd better call it depressed and ignorant, but it's still plane stupid! Someone should kick my ass! Oh wait, I should do that myself....
Got to ask my parents now to help out with a loan. I should also clean-up my room. It's a big mess. Really, it's silly how hard it can be to just look after myself sometimes. Someone please beat some sense into me! But again, that's something I need to do myself..... The question remains HOW?! One would think that after a year of therapy I would be able to look after myself, but the opposite seems the case. I used to be so organized and tidy a few years back....
The other thing is that next week is my last week in therapy and I need to think about what I want to do with it, how I want to leave, what I want to say etc. I've tried not to think about it the last couple of weeks because it scares me, but ofcourse that doesn't make things go away.... Thinking about it makes me sad because I'll really miss some of the people I got to know in the last months, I'm scared to have to do things on my own again, afraid I'm not strong enough to beat depressive thoughts and so on... I still don't really know what to do after I'm gone. I think I still want to do some kind of therapy, but am not sure what. In september I want to finish my study, but untill then I will have to try to find a job which kind of stresses me out.
Ok, enough of that. I'm going out, sit down in the sun, and think about how I want to do things next week and when I'm done I'll start cleaning my room!
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saucissedanseuse:
ps: i like the new profile pic 
hypoxian:
Oh yeah, I saw the set. Mary always has those distinct pics that make your jaw drop. 