Ive had a pretty stressful week, due to both good and bad things.
The week started at Saturday with the concert of The Magic Numbers as you can see in my last journal entry. It was a great concert. I had to send the pics in at Monday, but I couldn't work on the pics because something was wrong with my pc. Luckily I could fix my pc after some time, but by the time I was done it was 5 am and I had to get up at 7.30.
Monday my father came to therapy to talk with me. I wanted to talk about our relationship and what went wrong with it. Not to point a finger, but to try to fix things. I had to tell him stuff I never told him before, about things I didn't like about him and things I had missed as a child. I had been pretty nervous the week before. I was kind of scared for his reaction, but it went very well. He listened, apologized for some things and we spoke about how we could fix things together. It was pretty emotional at some points, but I'm very happy we did this. I feel relieved.
After the therapy session my dad came with me to my place and we drank some coffee and talked about less serious things. But then he told me something that really upset me. He told me my favourite 'little' nephew is in jail. Little because he just turned 16. He stayed at the police station for 2 weeks and is in a youth detention centre now where he has to stay for at least one month. Why? I am not sure what happened exactly, but the story is that he and some friends beat someone up who had threatened my nephew for some time. That's the short story, but in fact it's a lot more complicated. He has to stay in detention for a month now during the investigation. I'm worried and feel bad for him and my aunt. I can't imagine he really beat someone up, because I only know him as a good kid who knows right from wrong and always helps others. We'll see. Im going to write him a long letter to support him.
And then more therapy stress. There have been some pretty big troubles. A guy and a girl in therapy got in a big fight 2 weeks ago and last week they announced they had been in a relationship for 3 months until recently. As you might be able to imagine we were all pretty mad at them for not telling us especially because of the time we all had invested in their fight without knowing what was really going on. When I told this guy how I felt about it he told me he didnt care about what I thought and told me to shut up. I was really pissed off because I supported him in the fight and I felt a connection with him. This has been the first time in therapy I really got angry at someone, which is one of the things I have to learn, so that was kind of a good thing. Later he apologized. Its not sure if they can stay in therapy now because the therapists are also pretty mad. They will have to try to regain our trust.
Yesterday there was a work meeting from kindamuzik.net and for the first time I met some of my colleagues. We met in a bar and had a few drinks together while talking about music, life, photography and other stuff. I had a really good time with some great people.
Now Im tired from all the things that happened last week and not getting enough sleep. Hope this week will be a bit easier.
Oh, and today a friend helped me to cut and dye my hair. I think it looks really good. Its a bit shorter then it has been in the last few months with a wine-red fringe. Ill try to take some pics soon!
The week started at Saturday with the concert of The Magic Numbers as you can see in my last journal entry. It was a great concert. I had to send the pics in at Monday, but I couldn't work on the pics because something was wrong with my pc. Luckily I could fix my pc after some time, but by the time I was done it was 5 am and I had to get up at 7.30.
Monday my father came to therapy to talk with me. I wanted to talk about our relationship and what went wrong with it. Not to point a finger, but to try to fix things. I had to tell him stuff I never told him before, about things I didn't like about him and things I had missed as a child. I had been pretty nervous the week before. I was kind of scared for his reaction, but it went very well. He listened, apologized for some things and we spoke about how we could fix things together. It was pretty emotional at some points, but I'm very happy we did this. I feel relieved.
After the therapy session my dad came with me to my place and we drank some coffee and talked about less serious things. But then he told me something that really upset me. He told me my favourite 'little' nephew is in jail. Little because he just turned 16. He stayed at the police station for 2 weeks and is in a youth detention centre now where he has to stay for at least one month. Why? I am not sure what happened exactly, but the story is that he and some friends beat someone up who had threatened my nephew for some time. That's the short story, but in fact it's a lot more complicated. He has to stay in detention for a month now during the investigation. I'm worried and feel bad for him and my aunt. I can't imagine he really beat someone up, because I only know him as a good kid who knows right from wrong and always helps others. We'll see. Im going to write him a long letter to support him.
And then more therapy stress. There have been some pretty big troubles. A guy and a girl in therapy got in a big fight 2 weeks ago and last week they announced they had been in a relationship for 3 months until recently. As you might be able to imagine we were all pretty mad at them for not telling us especially because of the time we all had invested in their fight without knowing what was really going on. When I told this guy how I felt about it he told me he didnt care about what I thought and told me to shut up. I was really pissed off because I supported him in the fight and I felt a connection with him. This has been the first time in therapy I really got angry at someone, which is one of the things I have to learn, so that was kind of a good thing. Later he apologized. Its not sure if they can stay in therapy now because the therapists are also pretty mad. They will have to try to regain our trust.
Yesterday there was a work meeting from kindamuzik.net and for the first time I met some of my colleagues. We met in a bar and had a few drinks together while talking about music, life, photography and other stuff. I had a really good time with some great people.
Now Im tired from all the things that happened last week and not getting enough sleep. Hope this week will be a bit easier.
Oh, and today a friend helped me to cut and dye my hair. I think it looks really good. Its a bit shorter then it has been in the last few months with a wine-red fringe. Ill try to take some pics soon!
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hypoxian:
I hope things will look up for you. Dealing with human emotions is a bizarre science to me.
omega668:
i lurveee your hair ! 