euro_trash

yeah..i feel like shit...i really do..yell at me, talk down to me whatever...i did what i did because i had to. many many reasons..but i had to...i had to get things out into the open before it went too far..though i fear it did. i feel like shit because i almost did what my first ex did...except i gave reasons. i feel like shit...but this has to be.
i can't be with you as often as you deserve...i can't see you as often as you need...and i can't devote enough myself to make you truly happy...for this is why i much say "we're done"
i'm no good for you..there's too much going on...too much work, too much school..and not enough sleep..i can't do this...i'm exhausted...you may say that we can work through this..but it won't work...take it from experience...long distant relationships don't work...90% of them fail. even though 120 miles isn't that much..it's enough...enough to put strain on us..enogh to make it too expensive to see you as much as you deserve. i'm not leaving you for someone else...except myself. i'm doing this for us...for me...I can't take the strain of another long distant relationship..as selfish as that sounds...any strain on me is a strain on us...it's just my personality to manifest stress and anguish towards others that i care about, i try not to do it...but i do...
i can't take 7 months of your life to just up and leave for seattle...when i do finally get to go. you want to stay, i want to leave...you say i should go to PA because i hate ohio..but i tell you i need to go to seattle cuz i hate this east coast. i don't know what else to say..i'm crying on the outside and dying on the inside because i'm doing this to you, someone who i care so much about...someone who i love..but my love for you is causing this...i know you don't understand..but someday you will... i love you. i really do....but i must go..good bye.


song of the day...

Absurd
by Fluke


King kong in Cannes
On a date with Spiderman
Dan Dar's sitting there
Scared by the killer teddy bears
Down town Mini Mouse
Is slippin Micky's in the famous grouse
While big bird spreads the word
Anybody with a heart votes love

Judge Dredd found dead
Face down in Snoopy's bed
Outside Tweetie pie's
Getting itchy on more supplies
Meanwhile Snow White
Gets ready for work tonight
Turning tricks with crystal tips
Tying to make the best of it's absurd

Puppy dogs and pussy cats
In suspect suicide attacks
Captain Kirk from planet earth
Fights it out with Papa Smurf
Some phoney little ponies
Preying on old and lonely
Making friends robbing them
The X Men taught them everything

Betty Boop tired of life
Took vows became a bride of Christ
While Tin Tin's been playing
At Caesar's palace live on ice
Babar Kumbayahs
With the mighty morphin movie stars
As big bird spreads the word
Anybody with a heart votes love