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amanda says:? (1:05:02 PM)
i'm jealous that you get to take a nap

amanda says:? (1:05:05 PM)
i'm not gonna lie

amanda says:? (1:05:14 PM)
i wish i was there and we could cudle

peter says:? (1:05:15 PM)
you'll be with me in my dreams

peter says:? (1:05:20 PM)
you were last night

amanda says:? (1:05:28 PM)
was it a good dream?

peter says:? (1:05:34 PM)
it was

amanda says:? (1:05:39 PM)
tell?

peter says:? (1:05:45 PM)
but, my dreams are one secret that i get to keep

peter says:? (1:05:48 PM)
??'

amanda says:? (1:05:58 PM)
come on

peter says:? (1:06:03 PM)
nuh-uh

peter says:? (1:06:13 PM)
it was nice

peter says:? (1:06:26 PM)
i'm not going to ruin it by trying to explain it

amanda says:? (1:07:25 PM)
ah sad

peter says:? (1:07:39 PM)
for you maybe

amanda says:? (1:08:24 PM)
please....

peter says:? (1:09:16 PM)
.......

peter says:? (1:09:35 PM)
it was a long dream that kept folding over into a longer story

peter says:? (1:09:38 PM)
you know those?

peter says:? (1:09:45 PM)
where it's one continual dream

peter says:? (1:09:50 PM)
not a bunch of patchy ones

peter says:? (1:10:07 PM)
it was just us

peter says:? (1:10:12 PM)
nobody else was around

peter says:? (1:10:26 PM)
the beach, the sand, the waves

peter says:? (1:10:55 PM)
your head on my shoulder, and me holding you tight

peter says:? (1:11:05 PM)
a perpetual holding dance

peter says:? (1:11:18 PM)
there was nnever anyone else around

peter says:? (1:11:25 PM)
see?

peter says:? (1:11:31 PM)
i didn't want to try and describe

peter says:? (1:11:41 PM)
because it always comes out messed up in the end

amanda says:? (1:12:19 PM)
what? how is it messed up?

amanda says:? (1:12:23 PM)
it sounds wonderful

peter says:? (1:12:42 PM)
there was more to it than that

peter says:? (1:12:49 PM)
the feeling of warmth

peter says:? (1:12:52 PM)
and bond

peter says:? (1:13:14 PM)
but talking like this is setting a way for destruction, and hurt feelings

peter says:? (1:13:25 PM)
so, i'm gonna go take a nap

peter says:? (1:13:28 PM)
??

amanda says:? (1:13:32 PM)
hurt feelings?

peter says:? (1:13:38 PM)
on either end

amanda says:? (1:13:42 PM)
you don't know what you are talking about

peter says:? (1:13:48 PM)
how's that?

amanda says:? (1:13:50 PM)
go take a nap and have more good dreams

peter says:? (1:13:59 PM)
before i do

peter says:? (1:14:06 PM)
how do i not know what i'm talking about

peter says:? (1:14:08 PM)
?

amanda says:? (1:14:58 PM)
i don't know...

amanda says:? (1:15:29 PM)
i thought you didn't want to talk about it?

peter says:? (1:15:39 PM)
you've intruiged me

amanda says:? (1:16:21 PM)
first tell me what you meant by talking like this is setting a way for destruction, and hurt feelings

peter says:? (1:17:07 PM)
when i saw you in palmdale, after so many years, a ton of old feeling were stirred up

amanda says:? (1:17:17 PM)
what kind of old feelings?

peter says:? (1:17:22 PM)
.........

peter says:? (1:17:31 PM)
amanda, i was quite taken with you

peter says:? (1:17:34 PM)
for a long time

peter says:? (1:17:50 PM)
i was just very insecure about everything

peter says:? (1:18:00 PM)
so, i never voiced the thoughts

peter says:? (1:18:09 PM)
and on seeing how we've both changed

peter says:? (1:18:18 PM)
those feelings started popping up again

peter says:? (1:18:29 PM)
i got one of my best friends back

peter says:? (1:18:43 PM)
and someone with who i could share the real peter

peter says:? (1:19:22 PM)
but, to speak this way invites an opening for the failure of a friendship

amanda says:? (1:19:30 PM)
never

peter says:? (1:19:33 PM)
and the hurt feelings of somebody i care about

peter says:? (1:19:37 PM)
you say that now

peter says:? (1:19:49 PM)
but it's happened before, to me at least

amanda says:? (1:19:50 PM)
hurt feelings? why would i have hurt feelings?

peter says:? (1:19:55 PM)
idon't know

peter says:? (1:20:14 PM)
i just don't want to risk it

peter says:? (1:20:50 PM)
i like having you back so much, that i don't want to chance not having you around again

peter says:? (1:20:59 PM)
make sense?

amanda says:? (1:21:03 PM)
yeah i don't want that to happen either

peter says:? (1:21:19 PM)
that's why i usually keep my dreams to myself

peter says:? (1:21:28 PM)
because that's mostly what they are

peter says:? (1:21:31 PM)
just dreams

peter says:? (1:21:55 PM)
so, i'm gonna hit the sack for now

peter says:? (1:22:04 PM)
but before i go

peter says:? (1:22:13 PM)
how do i not know what i'm talking about?

amanda says:? (1:22:54 PM)
sometimes i think that you think that you are the only one with feelins about this subject

peter says:? (1:23:12 PM)
i thought i was

amanda says:? (1:23:28 PM)
you're not. thats why i say you don't know what you are talking about

peter says:? (1:23:42 PM)
you might need to spell this one out for me

amanda says:? (1:25:11 PM)
honestly...when i saw you in palmdale again it was weird. it had been so long. all these thoughts started running through my head. that i couln't push out. i tried and i still can't. there's this longing inside me to be with you. but then there's something that always second guesses those feelings

peter says:? (1:25:31 PM)
same deal on this end

amanda says:? (1:25:32 PM)
i don't know how to take it

peter says:? (1:25:36 PM)
neither do i

peter says:? (1:25:51 PM)
so, i suggest that we just keep along the way that we've been gong

peter says:? (1:25:55 PM)
going even

peter says:? (1:26:00 PM)
friendlies

amanda says:? (1:26:04 PM)
yeah for sure

peter says:? (1:26:30 PM)
i wish you were out here

amanda says:? (1:26:39 PM)
so do i

peter says:? (1:26:48 PM)
and what's really funny

peter says:? (1:26:55 PM)
not funny "ha-ha"

peter says:? (1:27:03 PM)
but funny "lick the windows"

peter says:? (1:27:34 PM)
is i get so awestruck by you

peter says:? (1:27:40 PM)
everytime i see you

peter says:? (1:27:59 PM)
i had no clue that there was any kind of return on those thoughts

peter says:? (1:28:12 PM)
or am i reading to far into things?

amanda says:? (1:28:19 PM)
no you're not

peter says:? (1:28:25 PM)
............

amanda says:? (1:28:35 PM)
honestly i think baout you all the time

peter says:? (1:28:47 PM)
why though?

peter says:? (1:28:55 PM)
i'm the stoner mormon who went off the deep end

amanda says:? (1:28:59 PM)
lol

amanda says:? (1:29:13 PM)
i'm about there too

peter says:? (1:29:21 PM)
this is quite a bit to take in right now

peter says:? (1:29:28 PM)
you've been high once

amanda says:? (1:29:32 PM)
lol

peter says:? (1:29:35 PM)
that doesn't count as a stoner

peter says:? (1:29:38 PM)
??

amanda says:? (1:29:40 PM)
i'm smoked a few times though

amanda says:? (1:29:45 PM)
just got high only once

peter says:? (1:29:58 PM)
at least a gram a day back in high school

peter says:? (1:30:03 PM)
my friendd bill was a dealer

amanda says:? (1:30:05 PM)
oh wow

amanda says:? (1:30:10 PM)
thats tons

peter says:? (1:30:15 PM)
can anyone esle say "pothead"?

amanda says:? (1:30:21 PM)
??

peter says:? (1:30:32 PM)
...........

peter says:? (1:30:35 PM)
i need to sleep

peter says:? (1:30:45 PM)
lots of tings are running through my head right now

peter says:? (1:30:54 PM)
i gotta go sort them out

peter says:? (1:31:00 PM)
i'll be back