eternalpain75

I've been waiting till I have something constructive to say.....but I don't think thats going to happen anytime soon. I'll stick with destructive, its what I do best.

Anyway, I'm not easily amused most of the time, and i've been tring to get into the mind set of people who are. For example: grown people who are totally amazed by a tree. Sure, trees are cool, they convert carbon dioxide into oxygen, so we can all breath, I get it. I have probably seen a million+ trees in my life....the thrill is gone, i'm over it. Yeah, yeah they change color in the fall, its pretty....I've seen it thrity one times, and remember about twenty eight of them, woop-de-fucking-do. I haven't seen a redwood in person, so they mite wow me all of about three times, and then turn into the same everyday bullshit as everything else.

I'm just a big ball of sunshine arn't I ?

What all this leads to is....There isn't anything like the feeling of something new, and no matter how hard you try you can't get it back. Dosen't matter if its drugs, porn, a fucking tree, ect, ect. Stuck in this hedonist, sensationalist, hell of utter fucking bordom.

I'm fucked (without even the courtesy of a reach around), once again nothing new.