etapi72

I have been thinking a lot lately which as I always say is a very bad thing for me. I feel like this one is going to be a long post but some may find it enlightening.

What is it that makes us who we are? What drives certain people to do certain things? These are questions I often ask of myself. What makes me who I am and what drives me to do what I do?

I have figuratively died and lost my soul and now it is returning I am learning to feel again and I find it odd. You see the last time I tried this whole school thing I failed miserably. I did not know what I wanted and therefore was not able to put in the time or effort required to make passing grades and I was kicked out of school. When I was kicked out I lost all of my confidence I lost my will to do anything that mattered to me. I became a shy shadow of what I once was. I lost my honor.

Things are coming back to me now. I fee knowledge and power coming back into my life. I feel as if all things are moving in the right direction. I am studying lots of things both in school and outside of school. I am taking up my studies in Kendo again and feel that I am growing stronger by the hour. My confidence is coming back I have realized that the greatness that once lived in my soul is still here it is fighting to be released. I am remembering things that I had forgotten and I am regaining my honor.

There are ruled of course. I must return to the ways of my code. I will list them here at a later time now it is time for meditation.