eroticgeek

I have been putting off this blog for the longest time. Things just suck so bad right now. I didn't want to bring anyone down with me. I am still in the process of moving. To make a long story short the house is in badly need of repairs. I had to quit school because I couldn't afford it anymore because all my money is going to the house. I know have to get a job to help pay for everything. I just feel so scatter brained and that is just the tip of the iceberg. Pezmaster and I found out that we can't get married or he will lose his job. He is currently my caregiver. So that makes me sad.Also, I had to cut off all ties with my biological family because they are useless drug addicts that robbed me, stole my identity, and used me for their own benefit. They never cared about me. It hurts. Until we move into the new house I am completely dependent on Pezmaster and this makes me so depressed too. I just want to crawl in a hole and not come out. I feel useless. All I want to do is be happy with the one I love and make my life better. Blah....Why can't I say things that I need to say to the people I need to say them to? I am a doormat. I hate being like this. : There has to be better days ahead.

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