what do i do?
i am in life limbo...i am waiting to finish up my sort-of job and go back to my home country, where i no longer have a home, and must shack up with the 'rents. 6 months after that i want to leave again. i am aiming to go on a self-directed study program of permaculture farming, which is good because i don't need tuition, but i still need to pay for flights and so on.
actually, this is sort of bullshit too--what i really wanted was not to go so far away, but my partner is inconsolable and cannot accept the notion of being apart for months at a time...says it's selfish. well i am selfish, i don't know why this is a surprise. but whatever. so P. wants to go to japan for a year, and i have to go along in this particular system. but if i can't afford a lot of airfare, i will still do what i want, just not on other continents. and P. will have to put up with it. are we gonna break up because of this? that would be the stupidest thing possible.
so really my life doesn't suck--i think it was just a vile bout of PMS that set me off.
as for a job...well, i don't want to stick around for very long, maybe 6 months; i have only had 2 jobs in my life, both McJobs which have provided no career growth; i don't want a career anyway; and i have a diploma in fashion design, one of the least useful pieces of paper ever printed. so i am going to almost certainly get a horrible job or have to find some other way to get cash together. maybe i'll spend my last grand on some fake tits and become a pornstar.
i am in life limbo...i am waiting to finish up my sort-of job and go back to my home country, where i no longer have a home, and must shack up with the 'rents. 6 months after that i want to leave again. i am aiming to go on a self-directed study program of permaculture farming, which is good because i don't need tuition, but i still need to pay for flights and so on.
actually, this is sort of bullshit too--what i really wanted was not to go so far away, but my partner is inconsolable and cannot accept the notion of being apart for months at a time...says it's selfish. well i am selfish, i don't know why this is a surprise. but whatever. so P. wants to go to japan for a year, and i have to go along in this particular system. but if i can't afford a lot of airfare, i will still do what i want, just not on other continents. and P. will have to put up with it. are we gonna break up because of this? that would be the stupidest thing possible.
so really my life doesn't suck--i think it was just a vile bout of PMS that set me off.
as for a job...well, i don't want to stick around for very long, maybe 6 months; i have only had 2 jobs in my life, both McJobs which have provided no career growth; i don't want a career anyway; and i have a diploma in fashion design, one of the least useful pieces of paper ever printed. so i am going to almost certainly get a horrible job or have to find some other way to get cash together. maybe i'll spend my last grand on some fake tits and become a pornstar.
i think that is why i have avoided serious relationships as of late
really
i see so many people get stuck in life, because their other half doesn't want to go here or there, or one believes there goals are more important.
my career is all fucked up. one month i am working here then there. i am working all night or getting up at four to film
fuck
no one wants to share a bed with a crazy ass like me
good luck with all that
what are you doing there?
i wouldn't get the boob job - ha
and my little paper is worth less than yours. much less
go art degree.