Reading in the noob group (funny the spelling checker did not know the word noob, wanting to change it into boob), I found that keeping a journal is standard here at SG, and since I would like to be part of this community I figured I should write a blog post here. So this is my first blog...
I wish I could write about how happy I am or how great life is, but to be honest my life sucks at this moment. And I hope I won't appear as the most pathetic excuse for a human being writing this stuff here...
It has now been about three weeks since I broke up with my girlfriend. According to my friends it was not a moment to soon since she has been seeing this other guy since July, but having two small kids together it is not so easy to just walk away from everything. Now she wants to move from the town were we live (one of the larger towns in Sweden) and resettle in a much smaller one (incidentally were her new boyfriend lives), about 40 miles (the metric system, i.e 400 kilometers) and 249 miles (if you are accustomed to the Anglo-Saxon system).
This is so terrible. It's not that she don't want me to be a part of our kids life, she wants that, but I will have to make the trip down there every other week so I can be with them. Since she's moving out of our apartment, which is owned by her parent, and since I will have to pay allowance to her I will not afford a place of my own (living on a student loan), I will have to move back to my mothers place.
I feel so abandoned and lonely right now, and it feels so much worse when I consider the fact that I will probably not be considered much of a catch in the future, being post 25 years old and still living at home and then spending every other week at the place were my ex-girlfriend lives just to be with my kids.
I wish I could write about how happy I am or how great life is, but to be honest my life sucks at this moment. And I hope I won't appear as the most pathetic excuse for a human being writing this stuff here...
It has now been about three weeks since I broke up with my girlfriend. According to my friends it was not a moment to soon since she has been seeing this other guy since July, but having two small kids together it is not so easy to just walk away from everything. Now she wants to move from the town were we live (one of the larger towns in Sweden) and resettle in a much smaller one (incidentally were her new boyfriend lives), about 40 miles (the metric system, i.e 400 kilometers) and 249 miles (if you are accustomed to the Anglo-Saxon system).
This is so terrible. It's not that she don't want me to be a part of our kids life, she wants that, but I will have to make the trip down there every other week so I can be with them. Since she's moving out of our apartment, which is owned by her parent, and since I will have to pay allowance to her I will not afford a place of my own (living on a student loan), I will have to move back to my mothers place.
I feel so abandoned and lonely right now, and it feels so much worse when I consider the fact that I will probably not be considered much of a catch in the future, being post 25 years old and still living at home and then spending every other week at the place were my ex-girlfriend lives just to be with my kids.
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But you'll make it and be a stronger person for it. The living in separate towns sound really hard. I wish you the best of luck.