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Sucks to lose an entire, heartfelt blog entry with one tiny, ill-timed flick of the wrist. <br> <br> I've been collecting toys and music and buying groceries and generally treating myself like an outpatient from a mental health facility, because that's honestly how I see myself lately. Going to the doctor for this sinus infection that I've had for the past few months, finally. Going to find a therapist to treat my lingering insanity. Going to volunteer to be a bellringer for the Salvation Army. Probably not one of those singing bellringers, though. Everytime I try to sing lately my voice gets stuck in my throat. <br> <br> Going to force myself outside at least 6/7 days of the week. Even if it's just for a few minutes, it's an improvement. Going to finally get my hair cut, so-help-me-god, this week. Even though it involves forced, extended interaction with a stranger. Going to suck it up and be pleasant to strangers and not give in to the image of me just losing it completely and screaming and screaming my fool head off. Going to nod and smile, and like it. <br> <br> Going to believe we're not all going to hell, <i>inmediatamente</i>. <br><br>Going to believe that in spite of products like this:<br><br><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/asphodelie/zaxy.jpg" border="0"></a><br><br><br> <br> and this:<br><br><br> <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e126/asphodelie/turkat.jpg" border="0"></a><br><br><br> <br> Going to look on the bright side: Thank goodness now we have artificial hands to hold our babies when we're not around. Now people can feel good about reproducing in spite of their busy schedules. Thank DOUBLE goodness crazy ladies can crochet themselves giant turkey hats and wear them around the house all crazy-eyed, going gobble gobble gobble. Wouldn't we ALL like to do that, if only we knew how to crochet?<br><br>Going to learn to crochet? Nope.<br><br>Going to bed.<br>