epicurus77

Hey, I've been gone a while!!!

Life took down turn...

I don't know if I have any friends on here or if anyone will actually pick this up, I just need to ask/say a few things to someone/something/anybody/my computer!

I remember all the things that I like about this web-site - It is the only site on the web that I have got involved in any way!!!!

You all appear to be amazing people, where are all the other amazing people?!?

The only thing that I never liked about this site and I still don't quite get, is......

The Name!!!

"Suicide Girls"?

Why is Suicide or Death cool?

Why is it that every thing that I like or seem to be interested in has some fatalist edge to it?!?

Why are all the amazing people in this world revelling or in some way celebrating the END! or is it more about Choice?!?

Do people just want that level of control? Is that the only means of controlling our lives?!?

Out of all the years where I've had friends who were Amazing people or like me struggled to get on, but Still Got On with LIFE!!!

Out of the few friends I had in the 'real' world - most have at some point tried or considered taking control at the end, or of the end!!!

Some talked but did not act, others acted but did not succeed!!!

Finally, someone...

And, I just don't understand.........


I had not seen him for a while..... the last piece of advice he gave me was to write to someone that we both knew to tell her..... well just to be honest!!! predictable result!

Then I've done something stupid which has left me unscathed but has potentially ruined another woman's Life!!!!

Sorry, I don't know what is going on...

I don't understand anything!!!

Does anybody get this?!?