epic

most important thing first!
i spoke to Dallas Green's aunt Robyn on the telephone thanks to Dave
this sounds creepy but heres the story
i was on the phone with Dave and he was at his moms...and he had mentioned before that he lived next to Dallas Greens something or other ..but i wasnt sure really...turns out his mom lives next door to his aunt... adn they were both having backyard get togethers...so Dave told me that he talks to Dallas green's aunt kim all the time whenever hes at his moms and jokingly siad that he thinks Dallas's mom is over there (kim is dallass moms sister) and i was like psh ill totlaly talk to his mom if u get her..and i was bluffing btu the next thing i hear is dave yelling "which one of u is dallas's mom" and tehy're all like "none of us lol" and hes like..."i have a huge fan of his on the phone right now who wantsw to talk to her" and Robync ame on the phone and i was like omg...this is crazy..so we chatted about how dallas apparently wrote teh song save ur scissors about her ...caz shes a hair dresser and i said i nko its not and then she goes on to talk about how its about having thick skin and we bonded then she said that dallas got all hsi talen tfrom her and i laughed and told her to prove it and asked her to sing something and she asked her sisters wat she should sing and they were all like nooo noooo lol it was so cute, she was so sweet and shes all like ur adorable im going to get u somethign signed from dallas but u have to wait caz hes in england right now but im going to get u sumthing ...it was so sweet and she was so nice ... i cant even remember what i said caz it was jsut so crazy and unusal lol... but i love meeting new ppl and talking to ppl on the phone so it was a trip definatly...anyway...
on to lesser important news


so im totally done with boys
im so over this whole dating and bullshit process
and im soooooo over being shy and turning down invitations to do stuff because of it.
im ready to live again
and feel again
and meet new ppl and do things im afraid to do and challenge myself and
expand my circle of friends...even tho im very picky with who i ahng out with
i see a whole new possibility on the orizen
my stable friends are all overwhelmed and over come by love and boyfriends
so i need to find me some new friends for when boys become more important than me
psh its sad
but its tru
anyway
i have surgery tomoro the doctor is going to take my virginity...
my dog jsut grunted it was so cute

anyway
i got to hang out with my friend myles who i havent seen or hung out with in forever
it was so amazing i was so glad we did, it was like our first time in two years hanging out alone, we had amazing conversation and we totalyl clicked i think were gonna be really good friends in the future if i can jsut get over wat ppl said he said about me...ppl are retarded

speaking of ppl being retarded
i think ppl now - a -days are way too seriosu about things
nothign can be brushed off ...nothing can be joked about
everything is so seriosu
u kno..if i took everything that has happened to me or has been sadi to me soo seriously..id probably be dead right now...of a heart attack or beatings or sumthign ridiculous..ppl jsut like to dwell on stupid pathetic things because they have nothign better to do and they want stupid pathetic attention which in turn makes them stupid pathetic attention seekers who want pity and are ...STUPID!


so all in all
i think good things are in my future
- i start yoga next monday FINALLY!
- im getting my hair did asap
- ive rid my life of alot negative influences currently
- i have anotehr job offer
- im done looking for a boyfriend im jsut out to have fun now
- im getting my tattoo soon
- i get to go tanning *yay*
- i talked to Dallas Green's aunt on the phone...kidna creepy i kno..
- i have a great new friend
- ive rekindled old friendships
- i might be singing in this amazing song with my friend Peirce
- everything seems to be turning up Stephanie lol
*knock on wood*

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