eowyn

Sigh.

I applied for Parkland Community in Champagne, IL. Hopefully I can get in. Otherwise it looks like a semester without going to school.

I doubt there'll be a problem. Fuck its a community college and I have an Associates degree and a 1.75 GPA.

However I checked the start date for instruction and it starts about the same time my sister starts school again.

Which sucks because Im basically going to have to go straight from nannying my sister to getting a job and an appartments and starting school.

And I was hoping that Id maybe get two weeks between so that I could plan anothter trip out to see Rich.

Now Im going to have to wait till October (after he comes to vistit me in July). Thats TWO AND A HALF MONTHS!!!!

I miss him so much already and its only been two weeks!

Hes been sick lately and I want to be with him so badly. I hate just being forced to sit here talking to him on the phone when I know that he's feeling icky.

I want so badly to be with him. I keep realizing how happy he makes me and how crazy I am for him.

Its funny cause I cant really explain it. Its surreal really. Its like, I dont really understand what Im feeling or why. I even doubt it now and then. I guess Im just not used to not being single. But I feel so empty and incomplete without him, so I know that Im not complete without him.

Okay Okay, I know Im sappy and disgustingly cute blah blah blah, but its my journal and I can write what ever bloody sappy love sick confessions I damn well please...

I love you Rich.