ennea

Everything sucks at the moment.

I'm not happy with where I am now and worried about what's ahead of me.
I'm not happy with who I am and clearly I'm not alone.

I feel hollow and I don't know what to do about it.

-O.

Hello, I'm back.

Yup.

hayfever sucks.

alil too much going on right now...
i just wanna work, i needa work.

for fuck's sake.
just leave me alone.

x

am i to really become a bloody performance artist?

i hope not.

id rather just stick with photography and painting, really.
please dont give me the "oh u needa be more out-there to become a successful artist" lecture again...

i am no performer.
i cant perform.

concepts cant be performed and my work is conceptual.
please understand.

night.
x

watched Underworld:Evolution today... better than i expected and it's better than the first one... so it wasn't REALLY a waste of money... hah. and she's pretty hot in it so yeah...

other than that... illness sucks.

later.

Oh boy.

excessive drinking + lack of sleep + overflow of caffine + too much seafood = some weirdass virus attacking my liver = allergy attack!

that describes the end of my winter holiday.
harh.

my face is still itching like fuck.
i wanna just rip it off and throw it to the wall and smash it with a hammer.

anyway. im back.
hello again....
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12.24

me is going to get pissed on free booze tonight. fuck others.
have a lovely xmas eve, boys and girls.
;]

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seeing three guys from three shitty past relationships all in one packed bar where they sell expensive drinks while you try to get pissed is not a very pleasant thing... tonight went by really fucking slow.

and it fucking sucked....
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This is an all Thanks post.

Missed my flight back to Hong Kong on the 16th and had to stay at some hotel in heathrow for a night... that was really pretty stressful.

*so thanks Jack, Jo, Aphextwin (an actual living creature) and mogwai (on random + repeat) for keeping me company.

Then i'd like thank the following people for that great belated...
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hah. so that was more than 3 months gone.

time to head home for some festive activities:
fancy dinners, uselss gifts; getting drunk, going broke; cheap cinema tickets, free dramatic performances at home; meat eating, spine fixing; annoying motherfuckers, noisy whores; lack of tabacco, overdose of low-class hiphop; be social active, dont get trashed in public...

fuck that's alota shit.

xmas is like king kong,...
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list of DVDs to get:

[1] The 400 Blows '59
[2] La Jetee '62
[3] Pi '98
[4] My Wrongs 8245-8249 and 117 '02
[5] Six Feet Under - Season 4
[6] Everything is Illuminated '05
[7] L'enfer '94/'05
[8] The Machinist '04
[9] Powder '95
[10] Go '01
[11] Zatichi '03
[12] Dead Man '95
[13] Funny Things '01
[14] Dinner Rush '00

......
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