enigma_entity

Well, I guess one could call today a good day, if that one were someone who was already committed to being alone in life. Just a disclaimer: I am very drunk right now and will probably be the same for about 48 hours(ish). Yesterday I had a problem the likes of which I thought I would never have. I had feelings for two girls who had feelings for me. Now how does one make a choice such as that?So I asked the Universe for clarity and I thought the answer was pretty obvious. One of the girls I had feelings for decided (unintelligibly if you ask me) to get back with her husband who is abusive as all hell. So I figured that I would accept the other girls feelings and be her boyfriend (see last post). Well, when I called her to see how things were, she uninvited me to her daughters birthday party and told me that she didn't feel she was ready for a relationship seeing as how she broke up with the father of her baby (who is also a good friend of mine) about nine months ago. I naturally, being the caring guy I am, told her that it was okay if she did not feel ready for a relationship, and that I would be more than willing to work on out friendship. Naturally, I was being nice and was actually really hurt by her decision. What can one do in this situation? Personally, I have decided that I will throw myself into my work and just work until these feelings have passed. However, I know that these feelings of rejection will not pass and that I will be depressed whenever I am not working. What can I do? Therefore I throw myself at the mercy of people who I have never met and may have insight on this situation. Please respond and comment. I am so confused right now and I do not know what to think. I would greatly appreciate your feedback, as long as it is honest, no matter how brutal it may seem. Thank you in advance. Until next time...